Am I Supposed To

AM I SUPPOSED TO? Am I supposed to be getting something from all this heartache and pain? Am I supposed to drown myself in all this un-needed rain? Am I supposed to go insane or walk away with my head held high? Am I supposed to go insane or walk away with my head held high? Am I supposed to disc you now- Tell you, I love you and without you, I would surely die? Am I supposed to walk away and not look back- or- Am I supposed to continue to take your opposition? Am I supposed to take you back into my arms- and not care- for all you have done? Am I supposed to tell you nothing else matters- but you and me? And without you, I would surely cry- Am I supposed to turn a blind eye and pretend everything is all right? Am I supposed to continue to welcome the heartache and strife? Am I supposed to take my heart, lock it away; with the hope that someone honest and loving will find it one day? Am I supposed to hibernate until that time arrives? Through the storms- through the sunshine- through the nights- and all through the morns- Am I to listen to more of your lies- to your solemn promise- to your alibis? -OR- Am I supposed to learn something from all of this? Take it to my bosom store it for future use- So, one day, I may know true happiness-Am I?