Alone

Alone Sitting here I feel so all ALONE the feeling chills me to the bone U were my guide & my HOME Now I just can't make it on my own I feel so lost and enraged Who stole our remaiing days? I'm sick & tired keep my feelings restrained Soul crushing heart ripping agonizing PAIN I'm done I've had it that's it Tired of your "" she's in a better place".. bullshit The fire that warmed me is no LONGER lit everyday I wanna give up call it quits Because I don't know HOW to deal with any of this? I think of my daughter her so deeply missed So the only choice find a way to make it thru this Your wisdom & guidance here that's my WISH CANT think of the big picture without YOU IT makes me sick Think positive believe me I have tried Can't ever get over a big piece of me has FOREVER died This unrelnting pain to much for me If only I could just put one foot in front of the other and clearly see You are the sun the moon the stars everything that could be Gotta let go of this debilitating negativity This unfortunate situation Most definitely has changed me Tired of tears sadness and self pity The only way to come out of this lies deep within ME I miss you so much you own my heart The number one thing you wouldn't want Is for me to fall apart I will try my best to go on Make a brand new start Seems impossible without you here US so far apart Still the under lying Emptiness is that will always be Fact of the matter is NOTHING or no one can bring YOU back to ME Nobody knows how I feel This entire nightmare so surreal I have no idea how I'm gonna heal What can I do to cope or try and deal? It's like a nightmare Wake me up I just can't bear As always I'm so unlucky Haven't got a prayer I was so much stronger When I knew you were standing there