Almost Once Again

While there’s a lot to preserve from yesterday There’s much to dwell on and learn from Especially when you’re insecure and get easily carried away Never patient, always impulsive, and too affectionate A trio that featured as main characters in my downfall And well, going against a bullseye intuition is what topped them all Time and time again, my gut whispered the truth But how those lies I told myself were louder, I never knew What I called optimism was me crowning my doubts Little did I know, my insanity was making the rounds I let myself down almost once again. However, this time, I didn’t drown or hit rock bottom A surreal power pulled me out of what could’ve become a fierce problem It was a whisper again, pounding my heart harder every day It kept aggravating till it turned into a scream expressing intense dismay For once, I gave it attention and tried to decipher its message. It looked like a hazard sign and sounded like a threat Telling me not to go down that dubious road for another regret; Asking me to kill another hope so my soul survives Pleading me to trust this intuition instead of those deceptive cries This time, surprisingly enough, I listened to my guardian angel I realised at that moment how it has always been the most faithful; Upon trusting it, I see a massive transformation in my perspective Gone are the days I fooled myself with a made-up reality, That trickster in me is now buried in my past personality Today, I am more at peace with myself than I’ve been in months My wisdom has resurrected, and I’ve let my fears free for once I have no regrets, no resentment; indifference is all that lives inside It is, indeed, the most powerful state my mind ever needed to find I’ve broken free from attachments, expectations, and erroneous hopes; I don’t wait for good things; I find gratitude in every blessing that evokes Now, I live every day as it comes; it’s best to go with the flow And so, I’ve decided, this is my new home, today and tomorrow.