Almost Lover

How do we get past this? Do we even have a choice? I know it can’t go further, But it seems I’ve lost my voice. Already with another, I can’t claim you as my own. Am I wasting moments? While I sit and wait alone. I don’t know how to stop this, Not even sure I could, Enjoying time together, They way I knew we would. Pursuing lost potential, Ideals that will not pass. How much should be invested, When I know it will not last. Do you want a lover? Uncomplicated fun? Will you take advantage? Should I stay or should I run? Running leaves me tired, It doesn’t change a thing. Time will still have passed us, And the pain of it will sting. Almost something special, Do I stop and take a stance? Years ago, long ago… I would have stood a chance. I feel I’ve known you always, That it’s right when it is wrong. Someone else who loves you, So I stay and yet I long… Do you think it easy? What of the effects? Do you think I’m coping? Or is this just a test? I know you think me hardy, That I’m fine the way we are. Don’t presume to know me, Or how I feel at heart. Time will show our ending, A start of something new? If that is not the answer, Then the start of leaving you…