All I'Ve Ever Wanted

I wanna cry out loud, I wanna shed my tears
I wanna run away, run away from here
I wanna close my eyes and feel no hurt or pain
I wanna take a different path, my heart will not explain
I wanna feel the cold, dead cold I mean inside
I wanna see eternal fire before it passes by
I wanna leave my body and take only my soul
I wanna tell you how I feel but constantly I fold
I wanna feel desired without the act of lust
I wanna have relationships that's built only on trust
I wanna feel the love, the love that never dies
I wanna hear the truth for once and not a pack of lies
I wanna feel alive, alive and not alone
I wanna tell the world my existence will be known
I wanna walk around and never have to hide
The truth around myself is all I want is to survive






















Written at what should have been one of the best
times in my life(marriage) but instead it turned out
to be a nightmare. I wrote this because I was feeling 
insecure and alone,confused and hurt, weary and afraid. 
I just kept asking myself and wondering, Could anyone 
relate to me??
Copyright © | Year Posted 2009

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Devonshire Avatar
March 2, 2009 at 1:17 PM
Tyesha, be assured that nearly everyone can relate to this! We've all been in committed relationships that sometimes disappoint. I hope you have found the strength to move on with your life. You have a gift for words, Carolyn
Dvorkis Avatar
March 1, 2009 at 8:26 PM
Elizabeth Gilbert wrote 'Eat Pray Love' mostly as an escape from her marital nightmares. I think she can relate to you on many different fronts. I can relate to all the emptiness. Everyone relates to the emptiness. It helps me to at least know that much.
Winter Avatar
February 26, 2009 at 6:28 AM
Sorry for all you have been through. Can feel your deep pain and frustration well expressed here. So glad this is in your past. Now, onto lighter and brighter days filled with love. Wishing you only the best. Hugs, Shar xoxo
Johnson Avatar
February 23, 2009 at 7:42 PM
I'm so sorry Tyesha. It is all here, the hurt and bewilderment. I hope all is better now. Thanks for reading and commenting on my posting. Love, Joyce
P. Avatar
February 22, 2009 at 1:34 AM
wow... you have completely poured it all out in this, woman!! Tyesha... gosh i want to hug you... this one is really a heart breaker... ~ Arany
Gass Avatar
February 19, 2009 at 10:05 PM
Tyesha, you expressed your heart so well in this poem. I can relate in many ways to this. I'm sorry. It is terrible to feel that way through the actions of someone who is suppose to love you. It is good that you write about it. Helps set some of those feelings free. It takes strength to express these feelings so openly. Thank you for your knd words. GBY! Love, Robin
Ginn Avatar
February 19, 2009 at 5:37 PM
Ty that's what I read you nut,,,at least its not all ME. My comments still stand I LOVE IT. Laurie
Richards Avatar
February 19, 2009 at 5:36 PM
This is such a tearful poem of desperation. It is so painful to read, as my heart goes out to the one who wrote it. I hope you have recovered from those terrible dark days. God Bless, Tyesha. ~ Carrie
Rhinem Avatar
February 19, 2009 at 5:31 PM
"Hello My Dear Gifted, Blessed & Lovely Friend Tyesha!!!"~What a soul searching write of heart and souls longing my dear friend~almost as if it were a prayer~one that I sincerely hope, that your precious life and eyes shall see, within the fullness of their beautiful wonders, long before your endless life has carried on!!! Very profoundly deep indeed dear Tyesha; stirring and moving within everyway!!! "Warmth & Blessings Always To You & Your Loves, John!":)
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February 19, 2009 at 3:38 PM
First of all, God bless your heart my friend..this is such a moving piece and my heart cried when I read it and saw your after thought..I can understand this poem and feel this poem. I can touch the hurt in this piece..you wrote this from your soul and it speaks loudly to me..well done my friend and I hope your heart will be forever loved. Chris.
Devonshire Avatar
February 19, 2009 at 3:06 PM
Tyesha, rest assured we can all relate! I can tell this poem sprang from deep emotions. Good job! Carolyn
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