All Because of You

The words that was said goes through my head as i lay in this bed it brings tears to my eyes but i dont want to cry i try to deny and FORGET but i can't not yet it brings a pain to my chest as i try to rest i used to hide in the closet feeling unwanted until i heard my name isn't ashame it drives me insane still today and i try to pray but i guess not right alright everythings gonna be okay i say only like 1462 more days then you'll be happy . . . . i get smacked oh revenge is gonna get paid back i tried death i used to hold my breath but i thought its not worth it everyones life is not perfect right? . . . . I keep a smile on my face holding in that inside but i dont let it out i close my mouth "be careful of what you say because if you say the worng thing something will come your way" so i keep quiet . . . . "you dumb Bcth" I hate when she say that sht alot of things is like a scar it'll never go away i keep it to myself so ill remember everyday hey remember this remember that dont try to deny it cuz its all facts you blame me for stuff i didnt even do theres only one person to blame and thats you . . . . i'm not doing good in school you call me a fool in front of your friends i wish it'll end but it dont, and it won't