All Alone

Sometimes I pretend I have him I think about our lives and I grin Then I remember there's no him there No him to hold my hand, no him to care Everyone around me, in love and married I'm here alone, like a corpse, buried Tick, Tock, the time goes by Do I look up to 'God' and ask him why I'm alone in this world with no him in sight Just me by myself on this cold lonely night Will I die this way, old and grey with no bae That can't be my life 'coz that **** is cray I question myself, all the time Am I fat? Am I ugly? I know I'm no dime But I have a heart of gold that should be shared But all they do is break hearts with no feelings spared So my self-esteem decreases and my confidence falls low And still I try and smile so these feelings will go Everyone says 'Don't worry Bukola you'll find someone eventually' But eventually, regretfully, medically doesn't produce heavenly biology to make pregnancy I stare at my phone, no messages, no calls Alone and neglected just me and four walls So with this I say goodnight in hopes that I might find a knight With good height to take flight and make me feel as high as a kite.