Agony

You took me home, I drink to much because of you my livers turn to dust You got me high my lungs have quit for the last time. And because of you my obsession grows more and more with each passing day. I do it more to feel the high but it just won’t come back to me. I tried to walk but it’s so hard I just end up on my back staring into the sky. You came to me to help me back onto to my feet. And helped walk me back to the car even with my resistance you took me home. I’m sick of the things you have said and done while leaving me high and dry. I’m so messed up from what you've said and I’m on the brink of dieing out, of this place you call my home. I’ve tried to make since of all the things you have said to me, But it is impossible to stay on track. Some people shouldn’t be alive. That’s how I feel. Like I’m not needed in this life, even though it might hold something I should uncover, I’ve never searched these things in mind that should be found, but yet apparently unattainable to keep track, it’s almost impossible to grab a hold of the thing that are most vital to your life. When you are in a life where all you do is getting smashed and seared. And you try and try to help me up, but you took one move… You took the one wrong move... You took me home. Because of you my life now sucks! And it’s now whirling out of my control I feel I’m fading from this place that you have brought me to So take my away from here I need not to see your face in front of mine So get away... away from me! Why is it when you call my name, I’m put in a state of misery I’m am so perplexed, can’t see straight I’ve tried to go and find my-self it's just so frustrating I can’t take the fact that you entered my life at an age that I do not know And I try to ask my-self what can I do to help me out of this awful state Of misery. Than you made an effort to help me up, but then I see a whole new being and it’s not you but somewhat else… I see… I see My-self!?! I think I helped my soul from this death I think that I have come to my sixth senses and have turned my life around. But you still make that one last go to start this all another time You took me home with this agony And I ask you one last time why did you make my life this living hell!?!