Afraid of Losing What I Don'T

I can't seem to cry (oh oh) my feelings are absorbed by my fear Unable to feel or express what i wan to feel I wonder like a refugee at once upon a time i was in control of me now everything is out of my hands Who knows who/what goes on inside of a heart that does not feel a mind that does not think eyes that don't see clearly and ears that only hear the contrary where did i go my love, my smile my reason for being everything and everyone doesn't seem to matter as much as they did in the past I'm afraid to love or trust again because the things i once trusted turned against me paper remains blank my thoughtless mind is unable to display anything my weary fingers cannot write not even what i want to feel or think I walk away from manner ignoring what i really want because i'm afraid of losing what i don't