Afraid of Losing What I Don'T

I can’t seem to cry (oh oh oh) My feelings are absorbed because of my fear Unable to feel or express what I want to feel I wander like a refugee at once upon a time I was able to control me Now everything is out of my hands Who knows who/what goes on inside of a heart that does not feel A mind that does not think Eyes that don’t see clearly and ears that only hear the contrary Where did I go My love, my smile My reason for being Everything and everyone doesn’t seem to mean as much as they did in the past I’m afraid to love or trust again Because the things I once trusted turned against me Paper sits there blank My thoughtless mind is unable to display anything My weary fingers cannot write, not even what I want to feel or think I walk away from manner ignoring what I really want because I’m afraid of losing what I don’t