Afflictions and Hope

I feel like I am a fly that lives for no purpose Doing anything for no reason Death to me is seven days away! How long will this torment in my soul last? There is a longing in me; Big as the oceans: Stretching beyond the shores of my solitary confinement. And my soul lies bleeding; Bleeding from the wounds of afflictions. Bitterness poisons my thoughts; Creating a huge dark cloud; covering the diamond stars that glitter in my mind. A drought of grace and love dwells in my heart; And resentment has grown in me as a cactus in a desert. Shadows of death and doubt breathe upon me, Like vultures waiting on me as if I was a dying prey. Destruction is taking a step closer to me every hour. And I’m folded as a cabbage, Squeezed on a corner, Trembling and crying out: “My LORD, My FATHER, Why do you forsake me? Clearly as the clean air; I am nothing without YOU. Rise up my LORD! Rise up as the sun rises up at the break of dawn wiping out the darkness, Let YOUR light shine upon my life and put a song in the bird's heart. Let me rejoice at the beauty of YOUR sunrise Let me rejoice at the first ray of light that shines a beam of gold Let YOUR light dry the tears of anguish and loneliness caused by darkness. Restore back peace and love in my life. Kill the torment in my soul And in its place rise a sweet essence. Pour rains of grace and love in my dry heart And bring back to life the sweet fragrant flowers of spring. Blow away the bitter clouds of thought, And leave my mind stretched as the universe; beautified by billions of stars glittering as eternity. Chase away the dark shadows that breath upon me, And let the doves bring to me the twigs of salvation. For in my inner depths breathes hope and faith in YOU. Let YOUR deliverance and providence shine upon me as the cloudless noon day sun; And FATHER; Let not the light of YOUR eyes set away from me, Lest I become proud in YOUR eyes.”