Addiction

I yearn for you like no other My day can not begin with out you The feelings you give me Have fueled my addiction Unless you are inside of me I can't seem to function The rush i feel once you enter my system Is worth all the pain you will bring later My parents wonder what's wrong I always give excuses And start to believe them myself The temperature of my body fluctuates My eyes dilated and red The thoughts in my head No longer make sense Incapable of surviving on my own I wonder if things will ever change The drugs have taken over My name is all that remains the same Sick of the lies and come downs I try to think of sober times But too much of me is gone I don't want to die Why am I leading this life? I fear the changes I must make But they are necessary No one knows who I am anymore Not even me I have the power to quit But I don't want to Give me my next dose