Addiction

This feeling dragging myself to the lowest standards the horrible feeling of being ruled by the man who has me face down on the mat and when i give in,, the craving go into the deep dark abyss.. i only see one way out and the cold steel is in my hands,,,, playing Russian roulette with my emotions.. not knowing when my next craving is going to hit me over the head..... But then i realize that i have a purpose on this earth,, and i don't have to give in to "the father of all lies" and that i do have a way out, and i do have people who love me so what can i do?? Let the pen bleed out onto the papers who have no way of judging my defects of character and take it one day at a time