Addiction

Booked into 12 step programme, But I’m finding it so hard, Remembering the trouble caused, The bars from which I’m barred. My sponsor’s in touch every day, To check that I’m ok, Without that call, not sure that I, Could last another day. If I could not give up the booze, Six months was the prediction, I had to get some proper help, To deal with my addiction. I wake up thirsty every day, But so far haven’t erred, I told them I could do it, Gave to each of them my word. I only drink to hide things, Take away the way I feel, It numbs me, helps to cope with things, Too hard to folk reveal. But each day’s getting harder, I feel really on the brink, But with their help and willpower, I’m staying off the drink. They're telling me they’re proud of me, That isn’t how it seems, But 2 months with no alcohol, Is just the stuff of dreams. I’ll do my best to stick to it, Drink too much and I’ll die, But every alcoholic knows. It’s so hard to stay dry.