Addiction - a Nightly Ritual
Although even in childhood, the nightmares sometimes came
They grew far worse when Dan died, and I shouldered the blame
He followed me when I chose to swim across a lake
In the middle he cried out, “This swim I cannot make!”
Engaged for just one day, wedding plans had not been made
My attempts to save him will never from my mind fade
It was then the nightmares came nightly; treatment I sought
And I became reliant on the first pills I bought
Amitriptyline, a well-known mood elevator
Helped alleviate bad dreams, but my need grew greater
I cannot sleep a wink without my medication
I have tossed and turned and cried out to our Creator
When I run out, I sometimes wish my life would soon end
On nothing and no one do I desire to depend
Even with the pill, I can wake up screaming at night
But if you take them away, no dreams will I invite
*Written August 22, 2014 by Carolyn Devonshire
Copyright © Carolyn Devonshire | Year Posted 2014
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