Accumulating Anger: the Rivers of Dimensions Chapter 1

I’ve lost my darksome heart in the rivers of dimensions long ago..oh so long ago... I’ve lost my lonesome soul in the waves of oblivion You’ve given me wretched woe, but I still love you deep down though...and that is so... Abyssal tears have fallen from my eyes of depression My meandering mind is wandering in the wistful woods of strange emotions and tensions You haunt me with visions of the past and I just want to turn to the rivers of dimensions They show me the future and the endless opportunities that are hidden thereof They show me the future and the endless possibilities of such unattainable love My darling angel, are you the endearingly dreamless dweller amongst the rivers of dimensions? I desire the magic in your touch...I love you oh so much...but you gave me torn-apart sensations The devious devil is still lingering longingly for us to depart from each other heartlessly in an instant Constant thoughts of letting go of you is riveting my head space and I’m far from grace - feeling insignificant I’m breaking bit by bit And you just throw a fit… So, I turn to the rivers of dimensions It gives me hopeful, genuine sensations… I’m tearing into shreds now Our vows were ruined somehow So, I rely on the rivers of dimensions It gives me delightful, positive anticipations We part ways once again and you told me farewell, but time will surely tell About a thousand times, I cried for you to come back to me sincerely I promised you I wouldn’t give you up so easily, for I was under your spell About a thousand miles, I ran up to get to your level truly and honestly Home is a billion lightyears away… So, I turn to the rivers of dimensions today So, I rely on the rivers of dimensions in dismay I care for you tremendously, But you didn’t care to see… You just told me to leave selfishly You are always roving and moving rapidly away from me like a river… If you’re ready to be surrounded by me, just be by my side forever… In the rivers of dimensions, the future isn’t a mighty blur and I feel sure I’ve been waiting for you for a long, long time and I can’t wait any longer I’ve tried to understand you best I can I’ve tried my best, but I’m just a man…you just yelled at me thoughtlessly I’ve tried to understand you best I can I’ve tried my best, but the accumulating anger got the best of me unfortunately I’ve lost my lonesome soul in the waves of oblivion Abyssal tears have fallen from my eyes of depression My anger drove you away from me Your anger didn’t help solve it inevitably So, I look up to the rivers of dimensions for my sorrow’s cure I will endure, even though my anger towards you was impure So, I turn to the radiant, rainbow rivers of remedy for my healing process You rely on an unreliable source - the shallow shadows of the insidious abyss We belong in the light of fearless, faithful benevolence We don’t belong in the perilous night of evanescence The rivers show me the future and the endless opportunities that are hidden thereof They show us the bright future and the endless possibilities of such unattainable love We were lost for so long due to our arguing; But now we could be found in the radiant rivers, Which will give us a sense of belonging We could mend our errors...we can clear our blurs I’ve lost my darksome heart in the rivers of dimensions You’ve given me rageful resentment and guilty sensations But I’ve gained a heart of gold - it made my heart bold - And so much more than what the eyes can behold I find relief through writing my emotions of frustration down I hate grief and everything that has to do with it...do away with it! Our fights and bickering give me such an enormous frown I’ve been struggling and now, I know why with such emotional wit