Abusive Love

Cold case lover, how I loved you so! You always mattered But, you never believed me! You were my every desire You were everything to me! Looking through your eyes Jaded with jealousy and envy You laid your hands upon me Acting out your emotional And bitter pain “Why were you so mean spirited?" “Who messed with your mind?" How can you kneel before me, now Pleading me to forgive you As, you bawl your eyes out Your relentless begging Over and over You keep playing mind games, with me! Begging me, for mercy To come back, One, last, time... With my swollen eyes Broken bones Twisted up, insides My heart is torn! “Are you a dead man walking?" “Do you not ‘feel’ no more”? Will I get to see tomorrow’s sunrise If, I stay another day with you... Playing Russian roulette with my life I am terrified, I am petrified! My eyes are blind My heart too forgiving! But, I am not leaving. “Will I become a cold case murder, one day?" I wonder... At the hands, of my own stupidity! “What will you do on that day, dear lover?" “Will you lie and be deceitful?" “Will you hide things?" Just like, you did from me! Will, you ‘vow’ devotedly You did it all in the name of ‘Love?' Will you brag about Your ‘bitter, sweet victory? Open wounds Bleeding soul Release me free From this man’s betrayal!