Abused

I withdraw into the dome of only me
Floating unaware through your reality.
Warm and cozy in my zombie state
To the one in the glass I won't relate.

I laugh and dance for I'm insane
Repeat your thoughts although inane.
I'll cheat this life for all eternity
Send my hapless soul to purgatory.

Incessant chatter a barbed refrain
As I swim through the waves of pain.
For all you do is talk and talk
Alone and scared I walk the walk.

Desperately I embrace my own insanity
For all I see in moments of clarity,
I'm not immune nor even above
This horror you call eternal love.

So break the glass and pour the wine
In you empty promises I'll recline.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2008

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Anos Avatar
October 4, 2008 at 6:31 PM
The line "For all you do.... walk" really, really touched my soul.... It is the best lines that conveyed the deepest seated sadness of the writer... It is described so heartbreakingly as alone and scared... So much feelings kept lidded... Great write here Heide. Brgds. George
Mac Donald Avatar
September 21, 2008 at 11:20 AM
Hey to you, Heidi! A great poem, very sad, yet still I think that you hold a lantern up to see all this. "empty promises", are words that might fall as being vaccant, but perhaps when they are uttered they true and full? I dunno, sometimes this is so, sometimes not. Outstanding imagery, it certainly sweeps up the reader. Best to you, Heidi, God bless you and yours! Mikki
Babcock Avatar
September 10, 2008 at 8:52 AM
This is a road many people travel down. I think more common than we think. We all have sorrow and pain but we can also have happiness and joy. A deep poem. God Bless Phyl
Foulk Avatar
September 6, 2008 at 11:02 AM
Heide I have read all of your poetry so I will just thank you for here for reading all of my poetry and for your comments, you need to write some more beautiful poems.
Piper Avatar
September 5, 2008 at 4:35 PM
thx 4 your comment. i have a book coming out. you can get it here: https://www.createspace.com/3354023 or amazon.com. let me know if you get a copy!
White Avatar
September 5, 2008 at 3:23 PM
hi Heidi, I read this again and it really touches my heart, take one day at a time and hoepfully things will get better, and thanks for taking the time out to read my writes and comment take care D-nyce
Piper Avatar
September 4, 2008 at 4:45 PM
nice work!
Loving Iii Avatar
August 31, 2008 at 3:33 PM
dare i comment? nice way to relieve some stress. this sounds like the answer to my latest work "forbidden" but don't look until you cool off. John H. Loving III
Reynolds Avatar
August 28, 2008 at 5:18 AM
Heidi, I can relate all too well with this dark, and true poem - it captured the hopeless, and final place one comes too when there is nothing left to do but accept ones fate...one of the hardest things in the world is rising above this torture and digging ones way out with bloody fingers - but the greatest reward, too! Beautiful and perfect write, love Kristin
Spence Sr Avatar
August 28, 2008 at 4:18 AM
There will always be brighter day ahead. Bouncing back is one vital part of the human spirit. I like the flow of words in this poem, it's very expressive. Great job! ~Joseph
Sheart Avatar
August 26, 2008 at 5:16 PM
Heidie Such as life, we all are human. Our feelings can't rest on the open air of exposure for to long without the need to understand and express them. This gives insight into what it means to feel abused from within or from without. Outstanding write! Take care hun and thank you so much for your support and comments on my poetry they both mean a lot to me. Love Light Truth Patricia
Richards Avatar
August 26, 2008 at 3:58 PM
A terrific poem....on the dark side, yet, I suppose we all have a little of the dark here and there ....perhaps it helps us understand each other better? Everyone has their moments, and it is good to explore them. You are most kind with your comments on my poetry. Thank you so much! Your poems are awesome...each one!....Best wishes...Carrie
Suzadail Jr. Avatar
August 26, 2008 at 8:58 AM
Sometimes little justice and it wreaks havoc on your faith. This is much darker than your other writes, hopefully fiction. God Bless. Vince
Austin Avatar
August 25, 2008 at 6:27 AM
Oh, Heidie, this is dark indeed. I hope, if you are the subject, things are looking up. Love, daver
Lokken Avatar
August 24, 2008 at 11:36 AM
Depthful in emotion. Very raw intensity here. Beautiful, and brilliant--although I wish I could touch your hand in reassurance sometimes and tell you it will be okay. There is light at the end of the tunnel--I hope you find it. You deserve it. Love, Sara
Strand Avatar
August 24, 2008 at 12:36 AM
Loved the final couplet Heidie.Such talent you thankfully share with us .Rgds Brian & thanks for your welcome comments
Degenhardt Avatar
August 23, 2008 at 10:11 PM
Heidie, your words paint pictures of clarity for the reader. Your espressed feelings as well add to the imagery and meaning of the read. Excellent writing. Michael
Jordan Avatar
August 23, 2008 at 9:57 PM
Heidie - Wow poetry can't dig much deeper than that - I been here about a hour and a half going well one more - I'm sure glad I did and now I think I'll call it a night - God Bless
Richards Avatar
August 23, 2008 at 7:14 PM
A very bleak place you have described....a place that we should understand ..so that we can perhaps keep it from happening to others. You draw us inside with your amazing poem, as if we can feel the defeat of one's spirit. You are a gifted writer. ....Sincerely, Carrie
Foster Avatar
August 23, 2008 at 6:27 PM
Mental and phyiscal abuse can surely make one withdraw into their own nutshell... it is a survival mechanism of sorts. Your poem clearly expressess the numbness, fear and the pained thoughts one must feel when trying to cope with the abuse being dealt by another. I pray that all is well. Thank you Heidie for sharing the read. God's Love and Many Blessings, Always, Adell
Winter Avatar
August 23, 2008 at 5:45 PM
Heidie, you took me into a very dark world with your words. I could only imagine such a horror. I know this is not your reality, yet you have an amazing gift for its expression. Disturbing and sad, you affect us all with the unique interpretation of its existence. A deep and bizarre perspective that only you could write. You are such a talent. Love, Shar
Foulk Avatar
August 23, 2008 at 4:44 PM
this was written with strong emotion, I grew up with bully's meeting me afterschool, sometimes they would beat me up I tried to fight back but no use. it may not be the same, but i feel your pain anyway. this was a great write. thank you for reading my butterfly in the forest and for your comment.
White Avatar
August 23, 2008 at 4:05 PM
Hi Heidi, I always enjoy reading your writes and yet I can feel this one is so full of hurt and pain, I hope this is not a recent event, if so then I will surely keep you in my prayers and in my thoughts, and as we know abuse can be mental and hurt just as bad as the physical, take care Heidi, D-nyce
Bingham Avatar
August 23, 2008 at 3:05 PM
Heidi I can only imagine. I have been so blessed in that aspect and cannot fathom why someone would do these things. God Bless my friend, Ron
Mckenzie Avatar
August 23, 2008 at 1:50 PM
Heidi I hope this sadness is not your life! If it has occured I am sorry I hope now that happiness shines your way .Peace and prayers your way. Laura :(
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