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Abused

I withdraw into the dome of only me
Floating unaware through your reality.
Warm and cozy in my zombie state
To the one in the glass I won't relate.

I laugh and dance for I'm insane
Repeat your thoughts although inane.
I'll cheat this life for all eternity
Send my hapless soul to purgatory.

Incessant chatter a barbed refrain
As I swim through the waves of pain.
For all you do is talk and talk
Alone and scared I walk the walk.

Desperately I embrace my own insanity
For all I see in moments of clarity,
I'm not immune nor even above
This horror you call eternal love.

So break the glass and pour the wine
In you empty promises I'll recline.

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George Anos

Date: 10/4/2008 6:31:00 PM

The line "For all you do.... walk" really, really touched my soul.... It is the best lines that conveyed the deepest seated sadness of the writer... It is described so heartbreakingly as alone and scared... So much feelings kept lidded... Great write here Heide. Brgds. George

Michelle Mac Donald

Date: 9/21/2008 11:20:00 AM

Hey to you, Heidi! A great poem, very sad, yet still I think that you hold a lantern up to see all this. "empty promises", are words that might fall as being vaccant, but perhaps when they are uttered they true and full? I dunno, sometimes this is so, sometimes not. Outstanding imagery, it certainly sweeps up the reader. Best to you, Heidi, God bless you and yours! Mikki

Phyllis Babcock

Date: 9/10/2008 8:52:00 AM

This is a road many people travel down. I think more common than we think. We all have sorrow and pain but we can also have happiness and joy. A deep poem. God Bless Phyl

James Foulk

Date: 9/6/2008 11:02:00 AM

Heide I have read all of your poetry so I will just thank you for here for reading all of my poetry and for your comments, you need to write some more beautiful poems.

Adam Piper

Date: 9/5/2008 4:35:00 PM

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Deneen White

Date: 9/5/2008 3:23:00 PM

hi Heidi, I read this again and it really touches my heart, take one day at a time and hoepfully things will get better, and thanks for taking the time out to read my writes and comment take care D-nyce

Adam Piper

Date: 9/4/2008 4:45:00 PM

nice work!

John Loving Iii

Date: 8/31/2008 3:33:00 PM

dare i comment? nice way to relieve some stress. this sounds like the answer to my latest work "forbidden" but don't look until you cool off. John H. Loving III

Kristin Reynolds

Date: 8/28/2008 5:18:00 AM

Heidi, I can relate all too well with this dark, and true poem - it captured the hopeless, and final place one comes too when there is nothing left to do but accept ones fate...one of the hardest things in the world is rising above this torture and digging ones way out with bloody fingers - but the greatest reward, too! Beautiful and perfect write, love Kristin

Joseph Spence Sr

Date: 8/28/2008 4:18:00 AM

There will always be brighter day ahead. Bouncing back is one vital part of the human spirit. I like the flow of words in this poem, it's very expressive. Great job! ~Joseph

P Sheart

Date: 8/26/2008 5:16:00 PM

Heidie Such as life, we all are human. Our feelings can't rest on the open air of exposure for to long without the need to understand and express them. This gives insight into what it means to feel abused from within or from without. Outstanding write! Take care hun and thank you so much for your support and comments on my poetry they both mean a lot to me. Love Light Truth Patricia

Carrie Richards

Date: 8/26/2008 3:58:00 PM

A terrific poem....on the dark side, yet, I suppose we all have a little of the dark here and there ....perhaps it helps us understand each other better? Everyone has their moments, and it is good to explore them. You are most kind with your comments on my poetry. Thank you so much! Your poems are awesome...each one!....Best wishes...Carrie

Christy Hardy

Date: 8/26/2008 3:55:00 PM

Sounds great, imagine our own ocean....I love this write, it gives the reader a look at what is on the inside of hurt. Blessings always, Christy

Vince Suzadail Jr.

Date: 8/26/2008 8:58:00 AM

Sometimes little justice and it wreaks havoc on your faith. This is much darker than your other writes, hopefully fiction. God Bless. Vince

Daver Austin

Date: 8/25/2008 6:27:00 AM

Oh, Heidie, this is dark indeed. I hope, if you are the subject, things are looking up. Love, daver

Sara Lokken

Date: 8/24/2008 11:36:00 AM

Depthful in emotion. Very raw intensity here. Beautiful, and brilliant--although I wish I could touch your hand in reassurance sometimes and tell you it will be okay. There is light at the end of the tunnel--I hope you find it. You deserve it. Love, Sara

Brian Strand

Date: 8/24/2008 12:36:00 AM

Loved the final couplet Heidie.Such talent you thankfully share with us .Rgds Brian & thanks for your welcome comments

Michael Degenhardt

Date: 8/23/2008 10:11:00 PM

Heidie, your words paint pictures of clarity for the reader. Your espressed feelings as well add to the imagery and meaning of the read. Excellent writing. Michael

Michael Jordan

Date: 8/23/2008 9:57:00 PM

Heidie - Wow poetry can't dig much deeper than that - I been here about a hour and a half going well one more - I'm sure glad I did and now I think I'll call it a night - God Bless

Carrie Richards

Date: 8/23/2008 7:14:00 PM

A very bleak place you have described....a place that we should understand ..so that we can perhaps keep it from happening to others. You draw us inside with your amazing poem, as if we can feel the defeat of one's spirit. You are a gifted writer. ....Sincerely, Carrie

Adell Foster

Date: 8/23/2008 6:27:00 PM

Mental and phyiscal abuse can surely make one withdraw into their own nutshell... it is a survival mechanism of sorts. Your poem clearly expressess the numbness, fear and the pained thoughts one must feel when trying to cope with the abuse being dealt by another. I pray that all is well. Thank you Heidie for sharing the read. God's Love and Many Blessings, Always, Adell

Sharon Winter

Date: 8/23/2008 5:45:00 PM

Heidie, you took me into a very dark world with your words. I could only imagine such a horror. I know this is not your reality, yet you have an amazing gift for its expression. Disturbing and sad, you affect us all with the unique interpretation of its existence. A deep and bizarre perspective that only you could write. You are such a talent. Love, Shar

James Foulk

Date: 8/23/2008 4:44:00 PM

this was written with strong emotion, I grew up with bully's meeting me afterschool, sometimes they would beat me up I tried to fight back but no use. it may not be the same, but i feel your pain anyway. this was a great write. thank you for reading my butterfly in the forest and for your comment.

Deneen White

Date: 8/23/2008 4:05:00 PM

Hi Heidi, I always enjoy reading your writes and yet I can feel this one is so full of hurt and pain, I hope this is not a recent event, if so then I will surely keep you in my prayers and in my thoughts, and as we know abuse can be mental and hurt just as bad as the physical, take care Heidi, D-nyce