Absent Father

Who is my father? That's one question I will never have the answer to. My father abandoned me before I was even born. Thankfully, my mother kept me, when she easily could have given me up for abortion or adoption. My mother is one half of me, but I was always curious about the man who made up my other half. I don't know where he lives, I don't know if he is alive or dead. I don't have a picture of him, I don't even know his name. I know nothing about my father. Is he a doctor, is he a teacher, is he the mailman, is he my neighbor? I often wondered, if I could have walked passed him on the street one day, and never even known it. We could have been standing next to each other, in line at the grocery store. And, he wouldn't even know that I was his daughter. I could have brothers and sisters out there somewhere. Maybe I am not an only child. I would like to see this man's face just once. But, if he didn't love me enough, to abandon me, maybe I should do the same thing to him.