Absence

Emotions spread like explosions Can not control what I can’t see Wanting to escape from this emotion That is a knife that cuts me deep Trying to manage with you here Is like a storm & I’m stuck in the middle Love is like an emotional disorder And currently my heart is cripple Searching for words I never lost Soaking in my despair So absent minded of “so called love” That maybe it wasn’t there Possibly it was present, just faded off Or buried under confusion Mistakes lead to bigger problems And problems lead to no solution Verbally we are together Reality were far apart We left love in a real dark room And now that door is locked Staying in pain seems detrimental But it’s killing me to move on Can find love in a massive ocean So why am I inside this pond Trapped inside of myself Feelings I cant explain Feels like every piece of this is a link That’s connected to a heavy chain It all was just one big plane And down it all went crashing Though we never admitted to ourselves Between us love had become absent