A Welcome Back

Is been a while and much have happened I know is confusing you and I've been on the move But surely never on the news much less on the groove I am here for one more reason I found years ago an is to get you buried I don't care the cost my dear There is nothing else to lose this days I have become relentless and restless Rapidly seeing with only twenty one years being in a dare I no longer wish to have control of this old life and if I tell How much will I lose to let the world know how strong have my ride been? And if I tell how to become tall Carry me out this endless vortex Disease by the same old rot organs made complex Let me down and is alright for the last time I don't have a price but safe me with a dime It all has a cost this days and so here I start This system in my country makes me feel useless I studied medicine since I was fifteen and went stressful Changing name to be resourceful I simply became endless Expandable and chosen never! I decided to study hard and work everyday since liberty became a fact I cried and stressed and lost and much more I gave sober Tried to keep it But I was too young to maintain it Today is the day that I count my sixth year fighting with myself Writing my stress in a random website I found four years ago I wanted to forget for a while I made people cry and be stressed like I went and said go But I'm too much afraid there is actually a god I never believed in such idiotic ideas but I've felt evil so there has to be good Because there is always a reason to be opposite of good and so it goes I wish the world to end but I'm too much afraid to be sober I wish you to come back my sweet girl but here I am restless I wish someone to hear me but here I write for the tenth year countless If I dared that night I would have pulled the trigger but I'm too afraid hell awaits I welcome back my pain and so my dreams Please suffocate my soul and rip my goals I want to go home... Where you sleep all day... Where you care not anymore for there are no more worries... Help me.