A Welcome Back
Is been a while and much have happened
I know is confusing you and I've been on the move
But surely never on the news much less on the groove
I am here for one more reason I found years ago an is to get you buried
I don't care the cost my dear
There is nothing else to lose this days
I have become relentless and restless
Rapidly seeing with only twenty one years being in a dare
I no longer wish to have control of this old life and if I tell
How much will I lose to let the world know how strong have my ride been?
And if I tell how to become tall
Carry me out this endless vortex
Disease by the same old rot organs made complex
Let me down and is alright for the last time
I don't have a price but safe me with a dime
It all has a cost this days and so here I start
This system in my country makes me feel useless
I studied medicine since I was fifteen and went stressful
Changing name to be resourceful
I simply became endless
Expandable and chosen never!
I decided to study hard and work everyday since liberty became a fact
I cried and stressed and lost and much more I gave sober
Tried to keep it
But I was too young to maintain it
Today is the day that I count my sixth year fighting with myself
Writing my stress in a random website I found four years ago
I wanted to forget for a while I made people cry and be stressed like I went and said go
But I'm too much afraid there is actually a god
I never believed in such idiotic ideas but I've felt evil so there has to be good
Because there is always a reason to be opposite of good and so it goes
I wish the world to end but I'm too much afraid to be sober
I wish you to come back my sweet girl but here I am restless
I wish someone to hear me but here I write for the tenth year countless
If I dared that night I would have pulled the trigger but I'm too afraid hell awaits
I welcome back my pain and so my dreams
Please suffocate my soul and rip my goals
I want to go home... Where you sleep all day... Where you care not anymore for there are no more worries... Help me.
Copyright © Derek Ortiz | Year Posted 2015
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