A Strong Sip

Right now I'm struggling and my heart is hurt
I'm trying to find a way to get my scars to reverse 
I'll pour a glass of brandy to calm my nerves 
Will it make me feel better or will it disregard my worth?

As I pour you into the glass I'm hoping you make me feel better 
You've seen me fall apart many times, but here I am still together 
But I know you're a quick fix, I won't be healed forever 
But it's just you and me here, so we can be real together 

It brings me peace being alone with something I can act wrong with
When my weakness shows I just pick you up and take a strong sip 
How do you make me sick to my stomach but feel strong at the same time?
Like a man going through a divorce, I don't know if I need to leave you or if you're who I belong with

Brandy makes me happy, but Vodka makes me emotional 
Maybe I allow it to make me seem shut off because I don't care to be approachable 
I know you can heal some pain, but you can't solve it all
I've realised the strongest people are those who don't allow you to be involved at all

I had friends and I used to think we were close
Until I realised they didn't want to know if drink wasn't involved 
I recently started to notice that you make me act dumber than you do smarter
Then I have to worry about how many more of you until I become like my father 

I use you as armour when I need to hide
You stay by my side for the trauma that I keep inside
You make me more vocal, and harder to keep a lie
You make me relive the drama that I need to die

Right now I'm struggling and my heart is hurt
I'm trying to find a way to get my scars to reverse 
I'll pour a glass of brandy to calm my nerves 
Will it make me feel better or will it disregard my worth
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