A Strong Sip

Right now I'm struggling and my heart is hurt I'm trying to find a way to get my scars to reverse I'll pour a glass of brandy to calm my nerves Will it make me feel better or will it disregard my worth? As I pour you into the glass I'm hoping you make me feel better You've seen me fall apart many times, but here I am still together But I know you're a quick fix, I won't be healed forever But it's just you and me here, so we can be real together It brings me peace being alone with something I can act wrong with When my weakness shows I just pick you up and take a strong sip How do you make me sick to my stomach but feel strong at the same time? Like a man going through a divorce, I don't know if I need to leave you or if you're who I belong with Brandy makes me happy, but Vodka makes me emotional Maybe I allow it to make me seem shut off because I don't care to be approachable I know you can heal some pain, but you can't solve it all I've realised the strongest people are those who don't allow you to be involved at all I had friends and I used to think we were close Until I realised they didn't want to know if drink wasn't involved I recently started to notice that you make me act dumber than you do smarter Then I have to worry about how many more of you until I become like my father I use you as armour when I need to hide You stay by my side for the trauma that I keep inside You make me more vocal, and harder to keep a lie You make me relive the drama that I need to die Right now I'm struggling and my heart is hurt I'm trying to find a way to get my scars to reverse I'll pour a glass of brandy to calm my nerves Will it make me feel better or will it disregard my worth