A Saddened Soul
Despondency fills my soul while
intense sorrow eats me whole-
I beg and plead for victory and in
silence misery keeps me full.
My sight grew dim and my
happiness slim and in the end
I have lost all my friends.
Loss of loved ones keep me
mourning as I can’t awake in the
morning...
-for depression gives me no warning.
Woe ends my day and the stillness
has nothing confident left to say.
They tell me a new day will arrive,
a moment I shall survive-
But in my cage I shall stay.
They beg me to hear positivity
when the sounds reverberate negativity.
I’ve lost all hope and fallen down
a slippery slope.
-for I can no longer cope.
I’ve faltered in the rain leaving
heart ache and pain.
I’ve gone insane with no happiness
to remain.
I no longer can see all the good
inside of me...
-I’m no longer free
from my self injury.
I can’t forget the
desolation as I cry out in desperation.
I long for the day I awake with new
chances I’m willing to take.
I fake chances at stake and regret
my God-given creation.
I thirst for a cleansing when I
have none to give-
I crave the moment of clarity when
I no longer wish to live.
I’ve given up, can’t live up…
expectations kill my exhalation.
Breath no more and lungs are empty...
-for death is my contemplation.
Happiness can’t be found when
you’re the most desolate woman in town-
I’ve been to the mountain and thirsted
for the fountain, but the water leaves
no sound-
yet my loneliness profound.
I need love. I need pain.
I need sun. I crave the rain.
I cry for noise. I cry for silence.
I cry to rejoice. I crave defiance.
I have closed the door,
I am happy no more-
I shall be a saddened soul...
forevermore.
March 22, 2017
Copyright © Lu Loo | Year Posted 2017
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