A Relationships Tribulations

when I first met you,
everything I wanted in a man, to me you showed
all the love we felt, I believed it to be true
you did everything to open up my heart from being cold 
everyday I had new butterflies...
shopping for a wedding dress while having hopes of us building a home
foolish me to have believed all of your lies
your priorities were being wasted and staying out every other night
seven in the morning you would come stumbling through the door
eleven at night I would cry myself to sleep a little more
Everyone warned me to stay away from you...
so naive, I continued to see only the good in you
no matter what you did, I consistently remained by your side
while in the back of my mind I always knew
you and me, could never truly be
for each other we were no good
it wasn’t just you
it was me as well
I wasn’t healthy for you to pursue 
you weren’t able to love me like you did when it was new
my eyes always swollen with tears
always thinking you would change
eventually I had to face reality...change was no where near...
All of your mistakes have taken a toll on me, you never did understand how affected I have remained
always blaming me...never looking at you
thought you would always protect me, 
no matter the situation, I never imagined you would be the one to hurt me
its crazy how my love for you made me stay around
what hurt the most, you took my worst fear, and literally threw it on top of me
why couldn’t you see, all of the hurt you have caused me, why didn’t you stop to see?
I'll never be the same looking into the mirror
the reflection I continue to see shows all that you have done to me
black and blue and the touch of you
trembling every time I remember it
wishing it was just a dream and I’ll wake up to something new
when I say I will never be the same 
I mean I will become so much stronger
make no mistake, you wont be my mistake any longer
I now know my worth is greater than yours,
my beauty is spectacular,
my heart is special,
my body is precious,
I am no longer a victim
I am a person worth having the best in my life
I am a survivor
I am a mentor whom will help guide others
everyday will be a struggle,
yet, everyday will prove an accomplishment

Copyright © Shannon Ronaldson | Year Posted 2015

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