A Raging River

A dream broken open left to decay away Another undoing left to go through the skewing and the scathing Called raving mad, angry, and sad As above so below We are what we know I won't go away so easily repeatedly Told eyes of golden beauty to the monstrous reapers keeper "You will never be anything of what you seek" "What we have you never reach" Sad and bitter truth in a world obsessed with outer appearances and disgusted by the thin shell of our bodies crust What lies beneath should be sook but pray never is First show us aesthetically appeal, kneel and, never speak against us Our world is filled with many beautiful things pray we are complex and contradictory to those things but, Give us wings and we can soar higher then the heavens past the moon Past now past soon Pray me an ugly thing who saw beauty in everything and now my scorched heart bleeds to a broken beat and i no longer see those things as I once did I fled or they hid Now I run with the sun and the monster they saw I became Driven insane by the ravenous and perpetual stream of my minds eye I have forgotten how to cry Lost amongst the ashes in a time well remembered A cold, dark, and bitter December but, My hope though a dying ember still burns and it yearns to ignite Here in the words I write In the nights I lay awake and toss to turn my view of this dark abyss of broken dreams into my one wish I used to wonder what crashing thunder could bring and i would sing so loud so proud of everything and everyone I was shunned made a fool I no longer hold out my hand in hopes of camaraderie Beauty took the best of me it cannot have the rest of me I keep myself well hidden from the world around me A diamond unrefined still shines in the light but dims in the dark of night I will glow when the day finds me and be sullen and cold when the night binds me Forever golden, Forever frozen A contradicting scheme of unfathomable torment A wide river flowing endlessly with harsh turns, rigid rocks, and cold that shocks At every turn another fall into a deep well an icy hell This river that twists and turns you that scorns and burns you lasts for eternity It rages on endlessly This is my reality A raging river searching for the sea