A Qualitative Report on a Single Subject Ego Death

Hypothesis: What is an ego anyways Are we born with it And from the moment we have the willpower we’re tasked with muting it Or does it grow from experiences of rejection Fed by whom? Is it intrinsically preserving, Extrinsically repelling… For the sake of avoiding philosophical debate Let’s say we have an agreed upon theory Experiment: I’d like to think my ego dissolved The moment my mother dropped me From her arms before I ever had a chance to challenge Piaget’s concept of object permanence And when I plummeted to reality I landed upon the selfless idea That if their need for affirmation Could supersede my need for survival Then I could keep from ever falling so tragically again Analysis: And though ego death happens in silence It’s showboating that sustains ego life Suppose one without the death could never question their impulses. Without an initial fall The ego can’t even see it’s own reflection