A Promise To My Captors

All I can hope for, I can not put into writing. Because I am turning blank, my words shot with lightning. I enter this cavern- and the doors close forever. I rid myself of my family's voices, wishing they would pull a lever. To send me back to a world where I don’t belong. I promise to stay in the background, and let my presence not be strong. I promise- To give up my being honest. About what kind of pain I carry. This pain that I will marry. And never let my soul connect. To another person, I will always deflect. So I cannot share- The pain that leaves me impaired.