A Prison of My Very Own

For entirely too long I held onto This image I painted of you But somewhere along the way The man I met that August day Got buried down deep inside And the man I fell in love with died Because the you that I now see Is not the one who had a hold on me He's been gone for quite some time Now all that’s left is this rhyme We used to be the best of friends Even after our love had come to its end Close friends we remained for a while And now I can no longer picture your smile Strangers is what we have become After the past we come from I never thought we'd end up here All along that was my biggest fear But I fell for you none-the-less Then my feelings for you I was forced to suppress I found a way to look you in the eye And tell a bold face lie Cuz I couldn’t completely let you go The feelings were buried below Behind my smile they hid No one was to know what I did And we all pretended it didn’t happen that way But I lived in my own prison every single day Sure that I'd never get over you Swore it was something I just couldn't do I told myself with a little time and space You'd return with such an embrace No words would have to be shared Cuz we knew how much we cared For so long I fed myself those lies And countless rivers fell from my eyes But your return never really came So I finally decided to end the game I learned there was nothing more I could do It had all been left up to you And you made your choice In a low and broken voice I whispered I love you once more And for the last time I walked out your door You didn’t say a thing at all This time I felt only a single tear fall Since that day I've tried so hard to find my way It's no longer as hard as it used to be Now your face I can see After all this time I know this girl will be just fine Since you've been gone I've really grown Even managed to escape a prison of my very own!