A Past That Died
Kid all i wanted was to continue
we had somthing very special
but you didn't care
Don't deny
you wouldn't of left
but you did
seven months in
it still feels so close
you were a mistake that haunts me
if not, prove me wrong
but you can't, you weak
you dont have the balls
all you talk about is about your walls
and how they drop
but its your fault
you could've stayed
but you jumped the stake and took a ride
to another side
you made your self a victim
but you sure did know the truth
and i can see your guilt
or did you forget
how well i can read you
its on your face kid
you lost your pace kid
thats why you left me
just for attention
but i told you you don't need it
don't believe me
but your result came to be
all because of you
i grew a hatred
a jealousy that was at a thrust
I believed your sweet little alibis
all because i didn't want you to separate
you are an illusion
and you know it
all because of your desires
that came from insecurities, and lonelyness
i was there kid
but you had to do was pull me over
you just didn't love me
and don't say you tried because you didn't in the end
the world is what took me i had resposibilities
hard times kid we all have it
but those challenges proved what was inside
I'm so embarassed
i cried for you
it wasn't my fault
blame the world we live
so you can see for yourself what we have
and ive told you
but you didn't seem to care
its ok though
I know who you are now
I am dissappointed and so much full of rage
I smell your deception from a mile away
spaz died
stops survived
stops had something beautiful still
spaz had thorny vines
..stops cried
that spaz died
that girl was beautiful
though her heart was horrible
but it wasn't all her fault
it was because she is the victim of the world today
she fails to see
what we all must see
i tried to open her eyes
for an idea to survive
but it failed
but i wanted to continue until we could not anymore
i did not want to give up though
she thought it was so
she hid something that was never shown
but i fought
but there was no result
she is the same still from three years ago
a tear the dropped like a spear
came frome my eye
believing these things i hear
and so i saw what i heard
and dropped like a dead bird
my heart full of hatred
but a mask showing a smile
i couldn't take it anymore
so i left for her to maybe learn
from what i so much regretfully heard
RIP Spaz I loved you until you died
Copyright © Pancho Gomez | Year Posted 2011
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