A Past That Died

Kid all i wanted was to continue we had somthing very special but you didn't care Don't deny you wouldn't of left but you did seven months in it still feels so close you were a mistake that haunts me if not, prove me wrong but you can't, you weak you dont have the balls all you talk about is about your walls and how they drop but its your fault you could've stayed but you jumped the stake and took a ride to another side you made your self a victim but you sure did know the truth and i can see your guilt or did you forget how well i can read you its on your face kid you lost your pace kid thats why you left me just for attention but i told you you don't need it don't believe me but your result came to be all because of you i grew a hatred a jealousy that was at a thrust I believed your sweet little alibis all because i didn't want you to separate you are an illusion and you know it all because of your desires that came from insecurities, and lonelyness i was there kid but you had to do was pull me over you just didn't love me and don't say you tried because you didn't in the end the world is what took me i had resposibilities hard times kid we all have it but those challenges proved what was inside I'm so embarassed i cried for you it wasn't my fault blame the world we live so you can see for yourself what we have and ive told you but you didn't seem to care its ok though I know who you are now I am dissappointed and so much full of rage I smell your deception from a mile away spaz died stops survived stops had something beautiful still spaz had thorny vines ..stops cried that spaz died that girl was beautiful though her heart was horrible but it wasn't all her fault it was because she is the victim of the world today she fails to see what we all must see i tried to open her eyes for an idea to survive but it failed but i wanted to continue until we could not anymore i did not want to give up though she thought it was so she hid something that was never shown but i fought but there was no result she is the same still from three years ago a tear the dropped like a spear came frome my eye believing these things i hear and so i saw what i heard and dropped like a dead bird my heart full of hatred but a mask showing a smile i couldn't take it anymore so i left for her to maybe learn from what i so much regretfully heard RIP Spaz I loved you until you died