A Pact

I am weary of my conscious awareness Sometimes life is hard to believe I know my intentions and how I feel inside But, I'm not sure what others see? It's not that I really care what people think of me However, I never want to be despised I'd like to be seen as someone who truly cares But I'm finding honesty isn't always wise I've made a pact with myself to always do my best To step to the front of the line and lead the way It seems so many - many times I've had hell to pay I've sought knowledge I've questioned truths I've asked people to clarify and evaluate All I'm asking for is the scientific proof For most, the fantasy is greater than reality There's a greater comfort in the known But it's in those late night moments in silence There's discomfort when you're alone There's fear in acknowledging our impermanence For uncertainties, certainty is strongly applied Unfortunately, the thought of not knowing Creates irreconcilable thoughts deep inside Perhaps I'm not crazy? I'm just traveling on an unmarked road The path may be unfamiliar and uncomfortable But that's where strength is gained, and wisdom bestowed