A Necessary Escape

How can I be happy, the thought makes me want to heave I sit around idle expecting you to leave The spark you threw is in my chest spreading in my veins I cave and I buckle while searching for some chains Runaway, runaway, runaway and flee I cannot escape, as I mostly fear me The grass is green the sky is blue, i should feel much more glee But the locks are bolted tight and I threw away the key Careless with my inner core losing what I really am I set my soul on fire, just watch me try to scram Go ahead and punish me I know not what I do My heart cries, my eyes bleed from that short and twisted screw Losing sights not what it seems, my brain rebuilds my world. But all the colors faded, and I'm forced to trust their words. Runaway, runaway, runaway from me Go escape while you can or you'll never be free Trapped in this dark deep hole isn't all that bad But if you let me have some poison I might not be so sad Reckless cause my head is spinning and no longer can i see Please guide me to the cliff side and push me in the sea The ghost of me is lurking near I feel it's cold chill I try to float far away by swallowing that pill Tasting the future as i lick my lips, I taste sweet sweet blood. Then I wake to realize that I'm only licking mud. Don't runaway, runaway, don't runaway please Reality is crooked, you're really just a tease Get me off this ride, no longer can I steer I'm miles from where I started and no one wants to hear My world has crumbled at your feet Will you leave me in the street