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A Lovers Torment Is Awaken

Walking into this cold, dark empty room, a realization storms my heart by surprise! The beauty of your eyes, your warm smile and soft touch, are no longer here! I painfully anguish, as my crying heart cries out for you! Your cream colored skin, your soft sweet smile. Your passion for me, it's gone, gone, gone! A numbness overtakes my heart, my mind, and my life, if there is a life without you! A constant reminder repeats itself in the depths of my wounded heart. My emotions are flaring, uncontrollably! My purpose is no more. It is finished, it is missing, lost in this pain, lost in this unforgiving torment! I'm suffocating, only your breath can save me. As I want to escape this relentless torture, of loving memories taken over by heart wrenching ones! I crawl in my bed, call it a painkiller if you will. There in my slumber I will escape you temporarily, and find A Solace Place, for a little while. Until I am overtaken by you again when I have Awaken!!! Michael Tor

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Joan Donnelly Ellis

Date: 10/9/2015 1:15:00 AM

Another one ,well done.

Michael Tor
Date: 10/9/2015 4:05:00 AM

Thanks Joan

Pat Davis

Date: 10/7/2015 8:20:00 PM

Michael, Got punched in the stomach, held my breath while reading your poem. I read the comments below to happily find that you are doing well now and that pain was a long time ago. Last line is awesome! Wow, painful, real, well done write! Take care, please. :) Pat

Michael Tor
Date: 10/7/2015 9:24:00 PM

Thank you Pat. For your kind words. Thanks for visiting.

Caycay Jennings

Date: 10/7/2015 12:36:00 AM

Like others here, I went through a period of time where I preferred sleep to reality so I relate to your poem. BUT I disagree with the 2nd stanza - she could not take your heart's feelings with her because, if you really think about it, all the love in your heart, came from you, not her. If love does not work out, it is the 'universes' way of preparing you for the one who is truly perfect. Only the universe only delivers when it is ready. Good poem, Michael ... CayCay

Michael Tor
Date: 10/7/2015 3:59:00 PM

CayCay clever observation. I have received what you cleverly eluded to. Thank you for visiting.

Tim Smith

Date: 10/5/2015 3:07:00 PM

Know the feeling my friend. Let the feelings flow. We will be here for you...Tim

Michael Tor
Date: 10/5/2015 3:30:00 PM

Thank you Tim for your support. It happened many years ago.

Kp Nunez

Date: 10/4/2015 8:13:00 PM

This is heartwrenching, Michael. Each line is throbbing with emotion. I appreciate sincerity in a write when I see one. 7. Big hugs coming your way!

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 8:53:00 PM

Kim thank you for the hugs. Hugs back my Dear. Life can sometimes have it's turmoil. I'm much happier now. Thanks for stopping by.

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 10/4/2015 7:30:00 PM

I have no complaints my friend, I am living a truly charmed life and the sad bits have long since vanished. Thanks for the thoughtful comment.

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 8:46:00 PM

It brings me joy to hear this Richard.

Nayda Ivette Negron Flores

Date: 10/4/2015 5:01:00 PM

Hello. You're welcome. Everything is right. Have a nice evening.

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 6:49:00 PM

Thank you Nayda I will. Hopefully I can write something more uplifting.

Paul Callus

Date: 10/4/2015 4:37:00 PM

Powerfully expressed, Michael. The loss of something or someone dear brings into effect repercussions that haunt the mind. Time heals, but the memory will never be completely erased! Moving on to a new relationship helps slow recovery. // paul

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 6:44:00 PM

Thank you Paul. Yes it is a learning experience and a painful one at that. Life can deal you a tough learning experience sometimes. With each we hopefully learn and become a better person by them. I was young then and did not take my relationship to serious as I put my friends over her. Her mother was visiting from Minnesota and she wanted me to meet her and selfishly I went out with my friends. When I came home that night. She was gone. That's when my nightmare began. My friends are still there for me. Thanks again Paul for your observations. I have been working around the house been really busy. I have to start reading and writing again.

Nayda Ivette Negron Flores

Date: 10/4/2015 3:04:00 PM

Excellent poem.

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 3:37:00 PM

Nayda hello. Thanks for the nice comment. Hope your doing ok today.

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 10/4/2015 1:21:00 PM

I just read the comments below, that you were writing of a true story. I never know when poets are making it up or not!! Anyway, sorry that you had to go through that, and glad that time is healing you.

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 3:36:00 PM

Thank you Andrea. I'm fine now. Time has a way of healing. Great theme for a poem.

Andrea Dietrich

Date: 10/4/2015 1:19:00 PM

yes, slumber can be such a sweet retreat, Michael. I enjoyed seeing this one from you today.

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 3:34:00 PM

Thank you Andrea for visiting. Your thoughts are always appreciated.

Cherl Dunn

Date: 10/4/2015 8:36:00 AM

Dear Michael I'm feel so sad for you after reading this poem of tragedy but in the world of sleep and dreams you can be together I believe this, I hope life gets better for you my friend time can be a very heeling thing, your'll never forget but it can be made easier with time, good luck and always remember the good times you've shared with this special someone, cheri

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 12:36:00 PM

Thank you Cheri Richard had it right. It happened a while back and it was the darkest moment of my life. These painful words just scratch the surface. Time does heal, prayer and forgiveness helps. Thank you for your advice, support, and kind thoughts Cheri. The worst of it is over. Another solution to my situation is finding someone new to love my present wife.

Richard Lamoureux

Date: 10/4/2015 8:08:00 AM

Perhaps the only place you will be together is in the land of dreams. There was a time when my life was so painful that sleep seemed the only thing that I looked forward too. I hope you were writing about a distant memory.

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 3:32:00 PM

Richard I'm sorry about the pain you had in your life. Pain doesn't discriminate. It affects all of us how we get over it and how it shapes our lives, is up to us.

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 12:26:00 PM

Beautiful thought Richard. Yes I was. The level of your love is comparable to the pain you feel when there is a separation, The more you love someone the the more pain. It becomes worst when you realize you were the one who caused it. A learning experience that shapes who we are. This happened in the early 80's. It was like my heart was scarred for life. A piece of my heart died when she left. What makes this so incredible is that you as much as you try can not control the result of a breakup. Sleep and time take the pain away. Unfortunately for some it creeps up every once in a while. Anyone that's loved and lost someone and blamed themselves I think might be able to relate to this write. Thank you for your support. God bless you Richard.

Eileen Manassian

Date: 10/4/2015 4:09:00 AM

So passionately alive with longing and pain. Fantastic poem, Michael. The feelings are palpable. Hugs

Michael Tor
Date: 10/4/2015 12:42:00 PM

Thank you Eileen hugs back. I appreciate your kind thoughts. a beautiful day here today. I'm going to finish raking some leaves and enjoy the fresh air we have up here in the Adirondack mountains and spend a quiet day with my wife. Blessings to you Eileen.