A Look Into My Past

There was a time when I was sad, I felt alone... like I was merely taking up space for those who wanted to be here. A look into my past will show you the dark days I have over come. It all started in junior high school I was the girl everyone liked... I was worshipped like gold. But with that worship came hatred and jealousy. I used to be vibrant and full of energy... Life used to be nothing but a game to me and I played it well. It wasn't until the hatred started to rear it's ugly head that I ducked undercover and never came out of my shell again. I became shy, and withdrawn. I didn't trust anybody because I always seemed to get hurt. I was alone, A stranger. I walked the halls like a ghost, no one seemed to notice the pain I was in. Everyone morning there was a routine... I would cling to my bed until my mother dragged me out on my knees. Tears in my eyes begging her please can I stay home. I was in a deep depression and each day felt like years... I wouldn't sleep at night because then the day time would come so much quicker. It may seem crazy to me now but I used to cry as I walked to school wiping my eyes as I walked. People could obviously see that I was in a deep trance, they didn't help they just mocked me and that made everything worst. But when things got to the brink of it's madness I left and found new friends... Now the problems didn't seem so bad and the depression slowly Crept away. I was happy again, still cautious, still a little shy but my friends were my protection from it all and I survived. A look into my past.