A Little Crazy

I went a little crazy tonight, a little over the edge. Reading the natal chart prepared for me by an astrologist in Poetry class and it all rang too true, the good and the bad was hard to take sitting there so alone without you without anyone I began to cry but not for your return or theirs, another path draws me now and good or bad I'll have to see it through until the bitter end or until it no longer matters, until my mother's creeping, bulging, bursting tumors take over the body the breast I nursed the cancer I imbibed my own breast barely saved. What is our goal? the surgeon said, and I said Save the breast and we did. Now I'm in college, at my age can you imagine and I surely have some reading to do and this higher education is almost too much sometimes but I love it and hate that I failed to pay attention for several months and now no one moves around in my space except me and I must have driven away everyone and thing has left me now but I do enjoy my solitude though not quite enough sometimes.