A Heart To Be

Having not a clue, experience living, Loving and caring, in gratitude and giving, Stepping out of thoughts that spend too much time, To sit and pull apart and analyse, What will be, will be, my heart will see, Throughout the experience living brings, Fear pulls us back, it sets the stage for confusion, It takes away from the experience and places us in seclusion, Physically we are there, but mentally we are not, To busy wondering what's going on, paralyzing the loves that sought, At the first touch of life, bringing tears to my eyes, Where were you all this time??, My heart starts to flutter, my hands start to quiver, I forget all the thoughts, the fear walks away bitter, Making room for mistakes, but there's so much more, I am now crying tears of joy for love has begun, I mourned my own heart away from loves true existence, Through contemplation and self doubt, left only the dream with resistance, Action could not proceed, I was stuck in a state, And if the dreams never spoke to my heart, I may just have faded away, God held onto me and never let me go, He knew the trauma I had faced that brought my heart so low, As I'm reading these words I'm writing right now, I'm shooken to see the truth, And the love I'm seeing that God is showing me, bringing me back to you, These tears are real, this heart I feel, I'm thankful for the dreams, That kept me alive, that helped me survive, that picked my heart up to be.