A Fight That Never Ends

A FIGHT THAT NEVER ENDS (me and my soul)

Into the living sea of waking dreams,
Where there is neither sense of life or joy,
Who am I, you ask?
I painfully cry, no grand illusions,
No place to go, Destined to stay here
I’m a rollercoaster of emotions

As you walk down in your life
Oceans of tears falling down in heavy droplets
The mouth of the earth can’t wait to swallow more of your tears
You stopped and looked for a way
Although your salty tears are laced with rage and heartache,
Let that experience break you open and rock the inside
Shaking, trembling, yet full of life
Be aware of your own strength, Soul
Do not put your healing on hold any longer, my sweet soul
Stop indulging in pain, 
Feeding yourself with the agony of another soul’s lack of love
The scattered pieces of your heart will heal 
And your enclosing love will again seep the corners of your soul 

How can I see the rain bow when it’s dark all around?
Tell me, How can I just stop and interpret these feelings?
Inside I’m crying, Outside I’m smiling
No one even notices,
It’s hard for me to control all the battles in me
When you see me walk by
It doesn’t look like it, but grand illusions only
Because crying is all I can do
The sensation of pain is all I can feel
When even the dearest that I loved the best
Are now strangers, forsake me like a lost memory
I’m a hater of ignorant people and liars
I’m- yet what I am no one cares or knows
I’m a lost soul, a naïve soul
I’m one who has felt and had enough
Why do things always happen this way?
Why doesn’t my heart choose to stay closed?
Why can’t you feel my pain?
This is all I ask, Soul
Help me walk through 

Yes, you are right
People in life, come and go, even the beloved
Life flies away by night before your eyes
People live you to fight alone
You lock up your heart and throw the key 
To see if there will be who bothers to pick them, none
Through it all, you wouldn’t change a thing
Transform your pain into creativity sitting dormant in your bones
Be tender and gentle with your experience,
Acknowledge every emotion,
And refuse to diminish this delicate, beautiful Soul
Copyright © | Year Posted 2017

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Lee Sr. Avatar
November 11, 2017 at 12:00 PM
Beautiful and lovely verse delicate soul a fan fav..welcome to the Soup --James
Odah Avatar
October 23, 2017 at 4:55 PM
Beautiful one from you Angel, keep it up.
Gaju Avatar
October 24, 2017 at 2:26 PM
Thank you,Isaac..I appreciate it..
Lucas Avatar
October 23, 2017 at 4:29 PM
Angel!! This poem is so vulnerable and transparent!! I sense the gift of prophecy in you!! Wow, you are such a talent!! Please keep writing!! I am so moved by what I have read so far. And perhaps the idea that God loves us so so much that she will make sure that all of us will make it to a place of eternal comfort, will comfort you in your incredible insight and depth of emotion. God Bless!!
Gaju Avatar
October 24, 2017 at 2:28 PM
Thank you for your support,I can say that I dedicate all these poems to My God..He is the one in control...I really appreciate your encouragement..Be blessed
Lucas Avatar
October 23, 2017 at 4:24 PM
Angel this poem on suicide is so incredible!! I have been to that point in my life, and it was my love for my daughters that caused me to push through and trust God and keep going. God bless you sister, for your awe inspiring insight and compassion. May God always shine on you with all that she has!! God Bless!! Woody
Walker Avatar
October 22, 2017 at 3:19 PM
This is so beautiful, its as if you knew me secretly and knew what to say. Your words are powerful. Great writing, One of my favs.
Gaju Avatar
October 23, 2017 at 4:16 AM
Thank you so much for your comment,I feel welcomed here,and free to express my feelings..I'm grateful that it touched you
Peter  Avatar
October 22, 2017 at 2:21 PM
Inside me am crying, outside me am smiling This battle with oneself will never end, I can relate to it 100%
Gaju Avatar
October 23, 2017 at 4:17 AM
Thank you for your good gesture,I feel good.
White Avatar
October 10, 2017 at 4:26 AM
Be creative, write your poetry, that's the way to go, and you did that well. Welcome to PoetrySoup :)
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