A Fight That Never Ends

A FIGHT THAT NEVER ENDS (me and my soul) Into the living sea of waking dreams, Where there is neither sense of life or joy, Who am I, you ask? I painfully cry, no grand illusions, No place to go, Destined to stay here I’m a rollercoaster of emotions As you walk down in your life Oceans of tears falling down in heavy droplets The mouth of the earth can’t wait to swallow more of your tears You stopped and looked for a way Although your salty tears are laced with rage and heartache, Let that experience break you open and rock the inside Shaking, trembling, yet full of life Be aware of your own strength, Soul Do not put your healing on hold any longer, my sweet soul Stop indulging in pain, Feeding yourself with the agony of another soul’s lack of love The scattered pieces of your heart will heal And your enclosing love will again seep the corners of your soul How can I see the rain bow when it’s dark all around? Tell me, How can I just stop and interpret these feelings? Inside I’m crying, Outside I’m smiling No one even notices, It’s hard for me to control all the battles in me When you see me walk by It doesn’t look like it, but grand illusions only Because crying is all I can do The sensation of pain is all I can feel When even the dearest that I loved the best Are now strangers, forsake me like a lost memory I’m a hater of ignorant people and liars I’m- yet what I am no one cares or knows I’m a lost soul, a naïve soul I’m one who has felt and had enough Why do things always happen this way? Why doesn’t my heart choose to stay closed? Why can’t you feel my pain? This is all I ask, Soul Help me walk through Yes, you are right People in life, come and go, even the beloved Life flies away by night before your eyes People live you to fight alone You lock up your heart and throw the key To see if there will be who bothers to pick them, none Through it all, you wouldn’t change a thing Transform your pain into creativity sitting dormant in your bones Be tender and gentle with your experience, Acknowledge every emotion, And refuse to diminish this delicate, beautiful Soul