A Father's Sun

To be born a girl to a father with patriarchal dreams
born a disappointment to himself was all I could claim. 
A pretty little thing, a trinket, a space holder, a seam,
to be a man is to be wanted to be woman's a shame.

Born a disappointment to himself was all I could claim
Mother cried, and tried but one more girl she bore to his frown
To be a man is to be wanted to be woman's a shame.
I watched and did not wonder as his lips turned upside down.

Mother cried, and tried but one more girl she bore to his frown
If I'd been a boy, his joy would have saved my Mother's heart
as I watched and did not wonder, as his lips turned frown down
I learned being male was something desirable and apart.

If I'd been a boy, his joy would have saved my Mother's heart.
I'd lead the pack, ride the rails, see the world, eat it all whole.
I learned being male was something desirable and apart.
But I'd not use my powers to break countless hearts untold.

Many children I'd seek, daughters and sons, all wanted each one
born a disappointment to himself was all I could claim. 
But a man, such as I'd be, would cherish daughters not shun
to be a man is to be wanted to be woman's a shame.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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Dietrich Avatar
April 13, 2012 at 6:25 PM
oh,and big congrats on your win for this well crafted poem
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April 13, 2012 at 6:24 PM
wow, Debs, lots of emotion in yours. Your dad was like mine I see (only mine was not around to show his disappointment, but wow, you should see, he does not let his 5th wife even drive a car!!)
Brown Avatar
April 10, 2012 at 11:44 AM
Congratulations on your well deserved placement in Frank's "If I Were A Boy/Girl" contest Debbie. Love, Carol
Song Avatar
April 9, 2012 at 1:37 PM
This pantoum stirs my soul...I can't even express how much in words...excellence in expression, Debbie. :) Gwendolen
Johnson Avatar
April 9, 2012 at 10:43 AM
Very sad and beautiful Debbie. Congratulations on your win. Love, Joyce
Sweetheart Avatar
April 9, 2012 at 9:11 AM
congrats Debbie on a great big win for this stunningly superior write luv.. wonderlines lines of expression from deep within.. awesome ..
Tams The Golden Girl Avatar
April 9, 2012 at 7:10 AM
Congratulations Debbie it is a crying shame not to be wanted because of your gender, for all our problems as kids we were loved as what we were. xx
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March 12, 2012 at 6:51 PM
What a heart wrenching poem Debbie..It tells of such sadness.. Thank you for pointing it out for me to read and for your help fixing my poem.. Hugs Tracie xxx
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March 6, 2012 at 8:57 AM
I like this one Deb. Yes, some men only want sons but children should be a delight a blessing and we should be happy they are healthy too. An excellent poem . love phyl
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