A Different Kind of World

The old Ford's hum on a road so long
Every mile's a memory, where I don't belong
Left this town with a song in my soul
Never thought I'd lose all my control
The doctor's voice, a whisper of a storm
Shook the ground and left my spirit torn
So I came back home, where the fields are green
To a ghost of a girl I used to be

Now the steeple bell rings on a Sunday mornin'
A sound I haven't heard since I was a girl
It's a lonely kind of hope that keeps me goin'
A faded map to a different kind of world
'Cause I'm trying to find God in the space between
The what-ifs and the what-should've-beens
On this hard ground, where the truth feels real
I'm just praying for a faith I used to feel

Mama's front porch swing, it creaks the same tune
Underneath a pale and worried moon
She says, "Honey, just pray, He'll hear your plea"
But the words catch fire in the long, dark night in me
Used to talk to Him easy, like a trusted friend
Didn't know it was a road that could just end
Now I'm just a whisper in a silent hall
Wondering if He's listening at all

'Cause the steeple bell rings on a Sunday mornin'
A sound I haven't heard since I was a girl
It's a lonely kind of hope that keeps me goin'
A faded map to a different kind of world
"Cause I'm trying to find God in the space between
The what-ifs and the what-should've-beens
On this hard ground, where the truth feels real
I'm just praying for a faith I used to feel

The creek still runs behind the Baptist church 
Where I used to sing with a simple purpose
Now I'm down here kicking stones in the stream
Trying to find a piece of a broken dream

Yeah, I'm just trying to find God
In this faded little town
Before the last light goes down
Before the last light goes down
Copyright © | Year Posted 2025

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Gauthier Avatar
November 24, 2025 at 5:47 PM
Congrats on your fine finish in Mark's Marathon, Jami ~ well done
Toney Avatar
November 21, 2025 at 3:17 PM
Jami, congratulations on earning an Honorable Mention in the 2025 Poetry Marathon’s FINAL Placement Contest—your poem stood out in a very competitive field of submissions. The poems of the 37 qualifiers can be accessed from my current "Finish Line" blog post. Time to take off those running shoes and give those feet a rest!
Ashley Avatar
November 3, 2025 at 1:03 PM
Dear Jami, I was captivated by the pain-filled intimacy of your poignant poem. I was especially struck by "'Cause I'm trying to find God in the space between / The what-ifs and the what-should've-beens" - wow! That's a powerful introspection. The conflict between doubt and faith is palpable; "I'm just praying for a faith I used to feel". Congratulations for your success in Mark's contest. Warmest wishes.. ~Susan
Poteet Avatar
October 26, 2025 at 5:10 AM
Concurring with your mom, hang in there and keep praying - God is there (and here) all the time and He's looking for your return too. He's listening to your heart. So sorry to hear of your diagnosis but there is life in the meantime and afterwards. Congrats, realizing this could be fiction, but regardless it is a worthy piece that applies to many.
Patterson Avatar
October 26, 2025 at 7:47 AM
Thank you and it is my reality.
Toney Avatar
October 25, 2025 at 10:57 AM
Jami, your country ballad dealing with memory, homecoming, and spiritual doubt is very thought provoking and will resonate with many. Love the recurring refrain, “Cause I'm trying to find God in the space between The what-ifs and the what-should've-beens …” and the poignant lines of the last stanza. Congratulations on your top 10 win on Mile 23 of my 2025 Poetry Marathon Contest. Keep your running shoes on, because Mile 24 has already started. Only 3 more miles to go before the Qualifiers’ Final Placement contest!
Patterson Avatar
October 25, 2025 at 12:35 PM
Thanks so much for the feedback
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