A Christians Depression

I have a confession, I have a problem with depression. I know I am blessed But my mind puts me to the test I do not know why Could this depression be Satan working on me? When this happens I know to go to God on bended knee. I need to let God in and push Satan out This I tell you about Sometimes I feel unloved But I know I can go to the Lord above He walks with me and he talks with me He loves me Sometimes it gets too tough Holding back the pain is just too rough I cry and cry Sometimes I just want to die Taking my life I think about But my family would have to live with out I do not want to go to hell Heaven there is a place for me, I know well Depression stinks Sometimes I feel like I’m on the brinks I go to God with Prayer I know he can hear I know if I ask for his help he will be there I just have to learn not to be so stubborn Sometimes I feel like he shouldn’t waste his time on me The way I am, I know he does not want me to be When no one else wants to listen, he will listen to me At times I feel like no one cares So I keep it all in and all I have is tears Then my mind starts wondering and brings on the fears I pray and pray all the time Most of the time he heals me Will this burden of mine get old to him? Will I no longer have him to heal this struggle? Will there be no one to give me a snuggle Even though I do not see him I know he is there, I can feel him I know he loves me equally to every one For God gave me his only Son