A Child's Fear

To wake to fear, to shiver and cry.... not knowing what the day will bring, will she shout or will she fight. Can I hear, is she mad is she sad. To wake with her hand upon my head, she pull’s she drags. Down the stairs she said... her foot collides with my fears, I fall I drop, down the stairs I go, I feel the steps as they hit my head and my back, my legs rolling my head still yawning .... Will she stop will she stop... she will not..... The kitchen door ajar, I move toward the door to hide to fly. I fight to hold back the tears that try to follow. Do I cry, do I hide... I do not cry, I do not hide, I take it like a little child... holding my hands high holding my head up to the sky. I think of peace, I think of love, can this be really be me. I look to the heavens do you see... can you see,,,, what she does to me... do I have to fear or do I have to shed a tear... I return from school, shaken with fear... did she hear, will she shout or will she just be ready to fight... I walk through the door to be greeted by a fist, in the face oh what a night, all I see r knuckles and rings is this really the way things will be, fear in the day fear in the night... my stomach churns my head turns, I see her face red as a rose,, she knows she knows... I close my eyes and hope she goes, will she show her fears or will she take my tears... will she hold me will she fight me... does she love me, will she hug me, dejection, rejection will I ever have affection.....