A Blessing In Disguise

A Blessing In Disguise Many years ago, I was asked to give the blessing at dinner. As a guest, this was not something I was accustomed to and therefore declined, finding myself in a losing debate. “It’s not a big deal; just acknowledge ONE thing that you are thankful for”. Politely, I said no, then stood up and left. Each and every one of us is on a path and that path can be long and winding. Though some boast with confidence, no one can know what is coming just around the bend. It is that bend that I have always tried to prepare for, to do what’s right, to be ready. But life is not a vacation, in which you can pack. Many years later and after my divorce, I felt lost and more afraid than ever before. Realizing that a path is more than HOW you take your next step, it is who, that you are NOW. But, I don’t know, who I am! I have withdrawn or been abandoned from many friends. I have tried to focus on my kids and myself. I have tried to breathe, through meditation. But, with no avail. Early on, I reached out to a friend I hadn’t seen in 16 years. And though she lives out of state and has a life of her own, she will periodically call to see how I am. I am thankful! A couple of years ago, out of the blue, a woman (my first love!) had messaged me. She was in town and wanted to catch up. We had talked for hours, as if 26 years apart were no more than just a day. I am thankful! A friend here in town that knows of my strife, who listens to me and gives advice with an unconditional kindness. I am thankful! And for the dinner I had today, where I am always invited without fail. I am thankful! So in these last few years, on this narrow rocky path that I walk, I am beginning to see a glimmer of hope. Not that much has really changed for me, but I am changing in the way that I look at things. Choosing, in how I see. Deciding to re-look at my life to see how and where I am today. And I am thankful! On a final note; the blessing that I was asked to give, I realize now that it was a blessing in disguise. Not only did they want me to be thankful, but they also hoped it would draw me from my shell. Never underestimate the power of God to put someone in your life. Incredible things can happen when you’re willing to believe. Thankfully Yours, Jeffrey