A Bitter Man.
I stand before you a bitter man, my life ruled by anger and hate with a heart full of passion
and love trying to claw it’s way to the surface through a chest of ice.
I have control over my life and all within, my problems are my own and my fists do my
talking but if you were to take that control away, you would see my tears, tears of fear that
hide in the shadows of my soul, a sign of cowardice, a sign of weakness, a sign of defeat.
I stand before you a bitter man, my life ruled by the memory of my past with a child
battered and
bruised silently crying for the help he knows he’ll never get.
I have a partner who loves and respect me, I have children who look to me as a role model
but if you were to take this family away you would see a frightened little boy who is afraid to
be alone, scared of the dark and the monsters that lurk within, unable to cope with the
pressures of life who’s only feeling of safety comes with a blanket pulled over his head.
I stand before you a bitter man, my life ruled by the aspirer to be unlike those who took an
innocent boy and twisted, tore, broke and destroyed his soul for fun with a body full of pain
and anger.
I built the fragments piece by piece from a shattered remnant, broken still but able to feel,
although not complete I pass for human but if you were to take this soul from me and watch
as the pieces fell one by one to the cold damp floor, you would not want to look back up, for
no longer would I be on the edge of sanity but flying over the line like a vulture stalking it’s
prey, were there once stood a man would now stand a monster.
I stand before you a bitter man, my life ruled by my own selfishness and ignorance of all
things I don’t understand with a desire to learn everything and a young man who’s thirst for
knowledge is unquenchable.
I have with me a answer to everything, I twist and manipulate the question until my answer
fits like the smallest of hands in a newly knitted glove and is accepted without second
thought but if you were to take that answer away from me you would see a boy lost and
confused knowing nothing outside of his own range of mind, scared to venture into the open
world out of fear it may consume him.
I now stand before you a bitter man
With an aspiration to be greater than what I am.
Copyright © Ivan Beresford | Year Posted 2009
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