Kendra Dexter Poet I do not know?

2003

What do you do when love is out there but your afraid to find it

Everyday the opportunites are endless

There are opportunities for both purly physical and deeply emotional 
relationships

I however am now terrified of both

What happens if i open up again

What happens if i get stuck there again

Pain, i cannot handle the pain again

When i was young i never let another person really in

I never felt comfortable in another person 

Although they foolishly felt it in me

My only expierence in love has turned into my biggest failure

Now i know that it is time

It is way past time

To actually live life instead of being a constant observer

i dont want to wreck my future running from my past

I've been trying not to make foolish mistakes

Mistakes that everyone must make to grow

Somehow i still believe that i can grow without expierencing the diversities of life 
and love

I try to believe that life will happen for me but if there is a path,

If there is always a reason than i must wonder,

What have the last 2 years been

Did i come here to finally open up

To fall in love and join the human race

What have i accomplished?

A trail of broken hearts follow me everywhere 

And at the very end is my own

No longer bleeding but still aching

If i could move on maybe my smiles wouldnt have to be fake

There is nothing more painfuly to me than a broken heart,

Followed by dozens of daily compliments

Followed by false smiles and heldin tears

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