17 Years Old

im almost 17 years old and already lost in this world, sometimes i wish i could be carefree again like i was as a little girl. not sure where to go in life, not sure what to do, when i try and find a way, i dont follow it through. after solving a problem another one pops up, thinking to myself that im not having much luck. i could sort myself out, make something of myself, take alot more care, in my lifestyle and my health. i think to myself i only have one shot at life, so why not get help now, why not listen to advice. why keep everything quiet, why not say what i feel, or carry on in silence pretending what i feels not real.