Let It Enfold You
either peace or happiness,
let it enfold you
when i was a young man
I felt these things were
dumb,unsophisticated.
I had bad blood,a twisted
mind, a pecarious
upbringing.
I was hard as granite,I
leered at the
sun.
I trusted no man and
especially no
woman.
I was living a hell in
small rooms, I broke
things, smashed things,
walked through glass,
cursed.
I challenged everything,
was continually being
evicted,jailed,in and
out of fights,in and aout
of my mind.
women were something
to screw and rail
at,i had no male
freinds,
I changed jobs and
cities,I hated holidays,
babies,history,
newspapers, museums,
grandmothers,
marriage, movies,
spiders, garbagemen,
english accents,spain,
france,italy,walnuts and
the color
orange.
algebra angred me,
opera sickened me,
charlie chaplin was a
fake
and flowers were for
pansies.
peace an happiness to me
were signs of
inferiority,
tenants of the weak
an
addled
mind.
but as I went on with
my alley fights,
my suicidal years,
my passage through
any number of
women-it gradually
began to occur to
me
that I wasn't diffrent
from the
others, I was the same,
they were all fulsome
with hatred,
glossed over with petty
greivances,
the men I fought in
alleys had hearts of stone.
everybody was nudging,
inching, cheating for
some insignificant
advantage,
the lie was the
weapon and the
plot was
emptey,
darkness was the
dictator.
cautiously, I allowed
myself to feel good
at times.
I found moments of
peace in cheap
rooms
just staring at the
knobs of some
dresser
or listening to the
rain in the
dark.
the less i needed
the better i
felt.
maybe the other life had worn me
down.
I no longer found
glamour
in topping somebody
in conversation.
or in mounting the
body of some poor
drunken female
whose life had
slipped away into
sorrow.
I could never accept
life as it was,
i could never gobble
down all its
poisons
but there were parts,
tenous magic parts
open for the
asking.
I re formulated
I don't know when,
date,time,all
that
but the change
occured.
something in me
relaxed, smoothed
out.
i no longer had to
prove that i was a
man,
I did'nt have to prove
anything.
I began to see things:
coffe cups lined up
behind a counter in a
cafe.
or a dog walking along
a sidewalk.
or the way the mouse
on my dresser top
stopped there
with its body,
its ears,
its nose,
it was fixed,
a bit of life
caught within itself
and its eyes looked
at me
and they were
beautiful.
then- it was
gone.
I began to feel good,
I began to feel good
in the worst situations
and there were plenty
of those.
like say, the boss
behind his desk,
he is going to have
to fire me.
I've missed too many
days.
he is dressed in a
suit, necktie, glasses,
he says, "i am going
to have to let you go"
"it's all right" i tell
him.
He must do what he
must do, he has a
wife, a house, children.
expenses, most probably
a girlfreind.
I am sorry for him
he is caught.
I walk onto the blazing
sunshine.
the whole day is
mine
temporailiy,
anyhow.
(the whole world is at the
throat of the world,
everybody feels angry,
short-changed, cheated,
everybody is despondent,
dissillusioned)
I welcomed shots of
peace, tattered shards of
happiness.
I embraced that stuff
like the hottest number,
like high heels,breasts,
singing,the
works.
(dont get me wrong,
there is such a thing as cockeyed optimism
that overlooks all
basic problems justr for
the sake of
itself-
this is a sheild and a
sickness.)
The knife got near my
throat again,
I almost turned on the
gas
again
but when the good
moments arrived
again
I did'nt fight them off
like an alley
adversary.
I let them take me,
i luxuriated in them,
I bade them welcome
home.
I even looked into
the mirror
once having thought
myself to be
ugly,
I now liked what
I saw,almost
handsome,yes,
a bit ripped and
ragged,
scares,lumps,
odd turns,
but all in all,
not too bad,
almost handsome,
better at least than
some of those movie
star faces
like the cheeks of
a babys
butt.
and finally I discovered
real feelings fo
others,
unhearleded,
like latley,
like this morning,
as I was leaving,
for the track,
i saw my wif in bed,
just the
shape of
her head there
(not forgetting
centuries of the living
and the dead and
the dying,
the pyarimids,
Mozart dead
but his music still
there in the
room, weeds growing,
the earth turning,
the toteboard waiting for
me)
I saw the shape of my
wife's head,
she so still,
i ached for her life,
just being there
under the
covers.
i kissed her in the,
forehead,
got down the stairway,
got outside,
got into my marvelous
car,
fixed the seatbelt,
backed out the
drive.
feeling warm to
the fingertips,
down to my
foot on the gas
pedal,
I entered the world
once
more,
drove down the
hill
past the houses
full and emptey
of
people,
i saw the mailman,
honked,
he waved
back
at me.
Literary Analysis
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Summary
Charles Bukowski's poem follows a rough, hard-edged life moving toward an unexpected softness. The opening command to let peace or happiness "enfold" the reader feels almost ironic at first, because the poem immediately turns backward to a younger self defined by rage, contempt, fights, drinking, bad temper, and emotional isolation. That earlier identity is presented as a kind of armor: the poet distrusted tenderness, mocked ordinary pleasures, and treated vulnerability as weakness.
As the poem unfolds, that armor begins to crack. Bukowski does not claim a dramatic conversion or a neat moral lesson; instead, he describes a gradual recognition that other people are as wounded, frustrated, and frightened as he is. Small moments then become revelatory: a quiet room, rain, a dog on the sidewalk, a mouse on a dresser, a wife sleeping nearby, a boss forced to dismiss him. These scenes suggest that peace is not a grand achievement but a series of brief, hard-won recognitions. The poem's central tension lies in the fact that the world remains harsh and compromised, yet the poet chooses to receive its fragile gifts anyway.
What makes the poem moving is the refusal to sentimentalize this change. Bukowski keeps the language plain, blunt, and self-correcting, admitting suspicion even toward optimism. Still, the ending widens the emotional field: he can feel tenderness, gratitude, and fellowship without pretending that suffering has disappeared. The poem suggests that maturity is not purity but endurance, and that real strength may come from allowing life's "shards" of peace to enter rather than fighting them off.
Theme
- Hardness and emotional armor - The poem begins with a self-image built around toughness, contempt, and aggression, showing how the younger poet used hardness to defend against pain and weakness.
- Acceptance of imperfection - Instead of seeking a clean or ideal life, the poem comes to value partial, temporary peace and happiness as enough to matter.
- Shared human suffering - The poem repeatedly suggests that anger, resentment, and disappointment are common conditions, not private failures, which softens the poet's earlier sense of separation from others.
- Small moments of grace - Ordinary details such as a quiet room, rain, a dog, or a sleeping wife become the places where the poet finds meaning and relief.
- Self-reckoning - The poem is shaped by the poet's own account of change, turning past behavior into an unsparing reflection on who he was and who he became.
- Love and tenderness as hard-won gains - The final movement toward care for his wife and casual neighbors shows affection emerging not as sentimentality, but as a result of painful experience.
Literary Devices
- Free verse - The loose, unrhymed structure mirrors the poem's conversational honesty and allows the speaker's life story to unfold in an unforced, reflective way.
- Repetition - Repeated phrases about feeling good, peace, and happiness emphasize the poet's changing relationship to emotional openness and give the poem a cumulative rhythm.
- Cataloging - The long lists of people, places, and things the young poet hated create comic intensity while also showing the breadth of his alienation.
- Juxtaposition - The poem contrasts violence with quiet, contempt with tenderness, and bitterness with gratitude to dramatize the speaker's transformation.
- Direct address - The opening imperative gives the poem a blunt, instructive edge, making the reader feel as if they are being urged toward the poet's hard-earned insight.
- Colloquial diction - Plainspoken, rough language keeps the poem grounded in lived experience rather than polished confession.
- Enjambment - The line breaks often carry the thought forward abruptly, creating a restless movement that suits the poem's emotional history.
Symbolism
- Cheap rooms - These suggest loneliness, deprivation, and the stripped-down places where the poet first begins to sense quiet and relief.
- Rain in the dark - The rain represents a private, almost anonymous form of comfort, something gentle entering a bleak environment.
- The mouse on the dresser - The mouse becomes a brief emblem of life observed without domination, a small creature whose presence inspires wonder rather than contempt.
- The mirror - The mirror symbolizes self-recognition and the shift from self-loathing to a more forgiving view of the body and self.
- The wife's head in bed - This image stands for intimacy, continuity, and the poet's new capacity to feel tenderness toward another life.
- The blazing sunshine - Sunshine marks a temporary opening into freedom, a moment when the world feels briefly available and alive.
Tone
Bukowski's tone is blunt, self-mocking, and increasingly reflective, with the rough confidence of someone speaking from experience rather than theory. He does not sound sentimental about his change; instead, he sounds wary of false optimism even as he admits he has learned to welcome peace. The mood for the reader moves from hostility and exhaustion into something rarer in Bukowski's work: a rough, unpolished serenity that feels earned because it survives doubt, damage, and the memory of violence.
Historical Context
Charles Bukowski is strongly associated with postwar American urban writing, especially poetry shaped by working-class experience, alcoholism, alienation, and a plainspoken refusal of literary polish. His work often sits near the rough edge of confessional poetry, though his voice is more abrasive, ironic, and anti-idealistic than many writers usually grouped with that movement.
The poem also reflects a broader late twentieth-century interest in anti-heroic self-portraiture and in finding value within ordinary life rather than in grand ideals. Its concern with disillusionment, labor, loneliness, and small domestic moments places it within a modern American tradition that includes poets who write about everyday survival without romanticizing it.