NOTE:
As here on our tiny Mother Earth, the grand internal story of our Grandmother Cosmos is a profoundly simple (and awesomely beautiful) one--despite its amazing external complexities.
The Ontological "WHY" Story of "Proto-concious"Existenc: A "Penrosian" sufi dream poem-theory
By: Moji Agha (Mojtaba Aghamohammadi)
June 5, 2023
Dear lovers of deep "cosmontological" (cosmology + ontology) truths,
a) An Iranian-American sufi "monk" or dervish, trained in humanistic/existential psychology (and in cultural and phenomenology/consciousness studies) I have been looking, since early 2021, for daring "Penrosian" scholars of depth, in order to share my "pre-theoretical cosmontological" (cosmology + ontology) work. My brief (but somewhat dated) bio is here at LA Progressive: https://www.laprogressive.com/author/moji-agha.
b) Not mentioned in this mini-bio, my "cosmontological" wonderings are summarized in a "sufi poem" that I began to write immediately after I "woke up" from a literal dream in late 2020. The original title of this somewhat lengthy poem/pre-theory was: Cosmontological Recycling UNI-ball, Renewing Itself Purposefully? Its complete text is published in PoetrySoup, here: https://www.poetrysoup.com/poem/sufi_poem-intuition_cosmontological_uni-ball_1317328.
c) While I am obviously neither a cosmologist nor a mathematical physicist, I think this "dream-poem" hopefully contains some valuable insights into the SCIENTIFIC (not religio-spritual) understanding of the GRAND WHY questions of existence. Has the "uni-ball" evolved consciousness (and our biological sentient brains) for the purpose (in part) of asking such "why" questions?
d) And it is critically important to note that in the very early morning of October 26, 2020 (when I had the "uni-ball" dream--and immediately after "waking up" started writing the initial draft of the poem), I obviously had not seen (especially the 10th minute of) this BEAUTIFUL video about the CCC -- Conformal Cyclic Cosmology: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BM64WK6A_iY (22 minutes / by Big Science Questions / July 12, 2023); and I also did not know even about the existence of Professor Roger Penrose--but I believe that if (and when) his CCC is proven to be scientifically real, such a revolutionary cosmological transformation would then open up wide, the ontological "WHY" portal to the underlying question of the purpose for our existence, the reason for Being.
NOTE:
This is a photo of the "uni-ball washing machine" (near Denver, Colorado, U.S.) that appeared in my dream. Perhaps because of its circular door, my dream consciousness had the idea that the "uni-ball" is a sphere, in which cosmic "recycling" is happening, in the metaphorical way that clothes move around seemingly "perpetually" (but with an obvious purpose) in the washing chamber of the machine, above, that appeared in my dream as a sphere--hence the "uni-ball."
e) In other words, the scientific answer to such deeply meaningful and inherently (?) purposeful "why" mother-of-all questions -- that has perhaps been "revealed" (?) in "my" dream-poem -- is the meaning-bestowing missing scientific explanation that would make ontological "sense" out of the cosmological revolution that is called, by Sir Roger Penrose, the daring science of Conformal Cyclic Cosmology.
f) And it is especially worth noting that the writing of this poem felt like an act of scribbling by my right hand (in my very groggy state of consciousness after I "woke up"), a process of which my "ego" -- or "nafs" in sufi psychology -- seemed not to be in charge, at least according to my "subjective" experience in those EXTREMELY PUZZLED early morning minutes. Hence, "I" have done my best so that "my" poem would retain, as much as I can possibly remember, the phenomenological "feel" (hence the many many questions, images, ambiguities, awe, wonder, fear that it may be "too late," etc.) of the "communicated" (?) dream-theory, in part for disciplined ontological and scientific reasons.
g) And thus, given the "awesome" nature of what "I" have experienced in the process of this "uni-ballish" dream-poem, I feel duty-bound to volunteer to submit myself to ANY (ethically designed and conducted) experiments that may shed more scientific light on its "revealed" (?) insights -- especially its WHY-related ones.
THE PROSAIC TRANSLATION OF THE "UNI-BALL" (dream-initiated) POEM
To make the process of introducing this "poem-theory" easier to digest (especially for scientists) I have tried to provide, rather painfully, the following outlined summary of it in prose, despite the fact that "reducing" poetry to prose is torturous for any poet, and this is especially true for a mystically oriented person like me. However, such a painful conversion of poetry ( https://www.poetrysoup.com/poem/sufi_poem-intuition_cosmontological_uni-ball_1317328 ) to prose is sometimes necessary, unfortunately, in order to facilitate the understanding and communication of the poet-seeker's intent.
Some of the main ideas of the "UNI-ball" dream-poem:
1- There can only be one overall universe--hence the word UNI-ball. There cannot be more than one, by definition. This UNI-ball contains in its "belly" all the "star dust" (spoken of by the late Carl Sagan), i.e., all that there is, has been, and will ever be; all singularities, galaxies, solar systems, atoms, photons, biological organisms, big bangs, black holes, aeons, etc.
2- If this all-encompassing UNI-ball is to have any shape, as we conscious humans experience and define it, that shape must be a sphere. Why? So that no large or small entity within the UNI-ball would enjoy any inherent advantage over its "sister and brother" entities.
3- We Earthly homo sapiens are currently at a rather primitive state of evolutionary development. Consequently, we are unable to reliably comprehend the actual ontology, the WHY of this dreamed UNI-ball. Thus, we are left only able to surmise how it has come to be--while we are adrift in an ocean of unknowability as to the purpose and meaning, the WHY of its Being, and hence the purpose and meaning of our own existence.
4- What is the nature of the UNI-ball, its true structure and real function? At least according to "my" dream (and the resultant poem), the answer may be a giant recycling -- and "conscious" (?) so-called "machine" -- within and through which the old gives birth to new “cosmontological” realities, proto-consciously, repeatedly, conformally, for ever and ever. But ultimately, what is the possible purpose and especially the meaning (i.e., the "why") of such a UNI-ballish cosmontological recycling process? What is it that may actually be going on, in fact, at least as "revealed" (?) in the consciousness of "my" strange dream-poem?
5- Could the answer be that through all this "conscious" (?) grand recycling of the "star dust" (including us, with our evolution-produced sentient brains) the UNI-ball may be engaged in a grand cosmontological evolutionary process of its own; moving toward a grand metaphorical ultimate "self-actualization" (per the late Abraham Maslow) of all its uni-ballish potentials, or dare I say, moving toward perfection?
6- Could this eventual "perfection" be the true nature of the "god(s)" that all religions and spiritual traditions have been trying (in primitive ways) to imagine, to fathom? Could paying in-depth knowledge-seeking close attention to the awesome consequences of our thorough appreciation of this "proto-conscious" cosmontological "recycling" somehow bridge the life-killing gap that currently persists between real science and real religion/spirituality?
7- In other words:
i) Are black holes (and the Hawking "evaporation" within them) the metaphorical "graves" of all "star dust" forms?
ii) Is it the case that after the eventual "evaporation" of all mortal forms (in the depths of such cosmontological "conformal" graves) in one "aeon" what would be "preserved" is only the Hawking points "information" (or the essential blueprints--the truly useful "DNA") of the uni-ball's previously actualized potentials, for example our consciousness?
iii) Does the mysterious "fine structure constant" (i.e., the dimensionless quantity of 1/137) "preserve" its numerical value as a unit-less constant of nature throughout all Penrosian aeons? And does the "perfect circle" -- per Carl Sagan's Contact -- PI (i.e., 3.14...) constant have cosmontological significance throughout all such aeons?
iv) And from a "present" aeon to the next one, do the above-mentioned "preserved" essential Hawking-point "blueprints" provide the ("unconscious") evaporated photon "seeds" that are needed for the renewed ( or "reincarnated" -- not "photo-copied") new and unique manifested -- but still mortal -- forms, into which the uni-ball's yet to be fulfilled potentials (in that "next" aeon) are then actualized? Hence, no new aeon is just a repetition or copy of its "mother" aeon.
v) Could it be that as more and more "cold" (high collective entropy) photons get "evaporated" (in the "grave" that is the ultimate black hole of the previous aeon's "remote future") the naturally increasing "condensed density" of such photons gradually become "hotter" progressively (while their collective entropy lowers--as a result), thus "seeding" the initial "singularity" explosion and later expansion of the next aeon?
vi) And finally, is it through the long evolutionary process of this grand cosmontological "recycling" (this gradual movement toward the above-mentioned "perfection" at the "end") that ALL of our -- one and only -- uni-ball's inherent potentials are eventually manifested fully; hence the self-less uni-ballish metaphorical ultimate "self" actualization?
8- But again, as to the actual cosmontological grand WHY (?) that all this has come to be, while we are far from being adequately evolved to even begin to fully know, I wonder this:
Per the often experience of our human consciousness, whereby we sometimes understand (if we pay attention) the full meaning of our journeys only at the end of them, perhaps "we" shall fully understand the GRAND ontological WHY of Being (and of our own existence/consciousness) only when all of the uni-ball's potentials have been actualized and perfected, at the "end" of the (conscious? and purposeful?) grand uni-ballish (aeon to aeon) recycling process that "my" dream/poem has "revealed?"
METHODOLOGY
Thus, this proto-consciously ancient and present "why" desire of our consciousness compels us to take seriously the task of finding the answers (that do already exist--despite our ignorance of them) to such mother of all questions. And a reliable scientific methodology for such an urgently needed rigorous and systematic cosmontological exploration, can be developed through the deep-searching journey of conducting a thorough scientific un-covering of the naturally existing patterns (especially the "conformal" ones) that are quite obvious -- if we really look carefully and deeply -- in the evolutionary ("unconscious") movement of mortal beings from simple to complex; basic ontological patterns that are (for example) self-evident in the experiences that our biologically evolved sentient consciousness has already dis-covered, at least some of such basic patterns (despite us being quite primitive), right here on our own tiny -- and deeply wounded -- Grandmother Earth.
One example of the above-mentioned "patterns" is that all modern humans, here on Earth, are genetically "programmed" to have ten fingers. So we can say that our natural evolution (which is obviously a biological and thus, an inherent cosmic potential pattern--that is now actualized here on Earth) was "pregnant" with the potential for each of us to be born with ten fingers. In a similar way, the cosmos was "pregnant" (for another Earth-manifested example) with all of our Earth, with the inherent ("unconscious") potential to develop the genetically-coded ability to be conscious and therefore to language--per Noam Chomsky--a potential that is now obviously actualized among us Earthling human organisms--children of evolution, with which the cosmos was inherently "pregnant."
Thus, in-depth and systemic explorations (for the purpose of un-covering such naturally existing patterns that are discernible to our evolving consciousness here on Earth) are the central pillars of the above-proposed ontologically curious scientific methodology, which is perhaps our only portal (including through dreams) to dis-covering cosmic realities and Truths.
CONCLUDING REFLECTIONS
1- I believe that the above-mentioned "uni-balish" insights (that came to "me" in a deeply puzzling dream) float in a hard-to-communicate shared meaning-space that is "located" somewhere (in an "interdisciplinary" spirit of collaboration--I hope--before it is too late) amidst the vast expanses of science, philosophy, art, culture, and spirituality, and in the cosmontological ocean of history and future.
2- Thus, I hope that all who deeply care (experts or not) pay close attention to the above; their possible feedback becoming the start of the first "peer review" journey (strange as this sounds) for these dream-initiated scientific "pre-theoretical" insights.
3- However, I expect the journey of somehow (and hopefully effectively) bringing such "revealed" (?) cosmontological "dreamy" insights to the scrutinizing attention (initially) of hard-core, but still open-minded, science, would continue to be a wonder-fully strange--and inevitably hard--process.
And finally, I hope that your scholarly and artistic interests have been piqued by this brief offering; and thus, I look forward to having the privilege of communicating with you directly. My email address is: moji.agha@gmail.com.
Thank you for your time and deep consideration.
Cosmontologically yours,
Moji Agha (Mojtaba Aghamohammadi) -- Colorado, U.S.