A River darkened

I'm sick of being
the man I never was,
once upon a time
I could have been,
anything,
but closing my eyes,
the images gush thru
darken memory
I cannot rest.
I think sometimes,
it'll be best
to suicide.
I've tried
in the past
but I know,
I'll be reborn
back.
I will live on,
and past the fronts,
live in solitary
of humanity
in a darkened
and obsolete
old town.
I need
to be
anything
but
here.
I hate my venom,
it was building.
I need to let go...
A river flows,
so why can't I?
Live in solitary
left alone
in my thoughts
and relax
to nature.......
If I'm faced
to trial
why not
the maker?
I still can't
get those dark
of horrible
endless thoughts
to leave
as I
bathe
my sleeves
free will
is a disease
Copyright © | Year Posted 2025


Post Comments

Poetrysoup is an environment of encouragement and growth so only provide specific positive comments that indicate what you appreciate about the poem. Negative comments will result your account being banned.

Please Login to post a comment

Date: 8/15/2025 5:09:00 PM
I can relate to your words, Ryan. Sometimes regrets can weaken my soul.
Login to Reply
Poetry Avatar
RGH Poetry
Date: 8/16/2025 6:02:00 AM
The best thing when my brother suicided was to take a break from the city life and it strengthened me and my resolve. We can't live in the past and the spiritual realm is infinity if we allow ourselves to forgive ourselves. We can only move on and I did treat my brother terribly at times but I focus on our happier memories and know that my conscious to him means I regret my mistakes.
Get a Premium Membership
Get more exposure for your poetry and more features with a Premium Membership.
Book: Radiant Verses: A Journey Through Inspiring Poetry

Member Area

My Admin
Profile and Settings
Edit My Poems
Edit My Quotes
Edit My Short Stories
Edit My Articles
My Comments Inboxes
My Comments Outboxes
Soup Mail
Poetry Contests
Contest Results/Status
Followers
Poems of Poets I Follow
Friend Builder

Soup Social

Poetry Forum
New/Upcoming Features
The Wall
Soup Facebook Page
Who is Online
Link to Us

Member Poems

Poems - Top 100 New
Poems - Top 100 All-Time
Poems - Best
Poems - by Topic
Poems - New (All)
Poems - New (PM)
Poems - New by Poet
Poems - Read
Poems - Unread

Member Poets

Poets - Best New
Poets - New
Poets - Top 100 Most Poems
Poets - Top 100 Most Poems Recent
Poets - Top 100 Community
Poets - Top 100 Contest

Famous Poems

Famous Poems - African American
Famous Poems - Best
Famous Poems - Classical
Famous Poems - English
Famous Poems - Haiku
Famous Poems - Love
Famous Poems - Short
Famous Poems - Top 100

Famous Poets

Famous Poets - Living
Famous Poets - Most Popular
Famous Poets - Top 100
Famous Poets - Best
Famous Poets - Women
Famous Poets - African American
Famous Poets - Beat
Famous Poets - Cinquain
Famous Poets - Classical
Famous Poets - English
Famous Poets - Haiku
Famous Poets - Hindi
Famous Poets - Jewish
Famous Poets - Love
Famous Poets - Metaphysical
Famous Poets - Modern
Famous Poets - Punjabi
Famous Poets - Romantic
Famous Poets - Spanish
Famous Poets - Suicidal
Famous Poets - Urdu
Famous Poets - War

Poetry Resources

Anagrams
Bible
Book Store
Character Counter
Cliché Finder
Poetry Clichés
Common Words
Copyright Information
Grammar
Grammar Checker
Homonym
Homophones
How to Write a Poem
Lyrics
Love Poem Generator
New Poetic Forms
Plagiarism Checker
Poetry Art
Publishing
Random Word Generator
Spell Checker
What is Good Poetry?
Word Counter