Where Am I? Who Am I?

I wake up, I don't know where I am. Where am I? I pay attention to my ears. I hear nothing. But yes, I do seem to hear something. From far away, I sense something approaching. Someone shouting. I get up slowly. But what is this? What have I got into? I'm not what I was yesterday. What is this body I have? I look around and spot something flat and shining. I look into it, thinking it must be some kind of mirror. It's definitely not what I'm used to, but anyway, beggars are not choosers. I look into that mirror-like thing. Now I can see I have this grotesque head with only two eyes! How gross! And I have only one nose! And what the heck is this hole near the bottom of my face? Is this what's supposed to be a mouth? The mouth of an intelligent being has to be in his stomach, not in the head! I seem to have these nauseating ears, neck, arms, stomach, shoulders, and legs. I can't stand it! I must be dreaming. I've got to get back to sleep and go back to my good old Andromeda. Hey, what is this? It looks like a bunch of pieces of paper with some letter-like things on them. I can't read them. I don't understand the language. I think I have to localize my brains, setting them to understand this strange, primitive-looking language. Oh, someone's knocking on the door. Shall I answer it? What if one of those ghosts comes through the door trying to kill me? But that's what usually happens in the Andromeda. I'm here in a strange place. Let's open the door and see what happens. Oh, an ugly creature looking just like what I now happen to be is talking to me. My newly localized brains seem to be working all right. I manage to understand what he's saying, although not all. He seems to say something along the lines of: there'll be a local meeting near here this evening and he'd appreciate it if I could come. Am I supposed to say, yes, I'll definitely come? Oh, what the heck! I'll come to any place they want me to come. He leaves, looking satisfied. But anyway, how ugly he is! Just like the way I look now. I miss my usual body with my graceful four eyes, two noses, ten-meter-long arms and legs, with big wings. With this new body of mine, I can't even fly in the sky! I have no means of transportation other than walking. How inconvenient! Besides, I seem to have a lot of difficulty in breathing. Why is that? Are my present lungs that small? Or is the air much too thin? I need a bit of sulfur in the atmosphere to keep myself healthy. We intelligent beings just can't survive without it. Where am I anyway? And who am I? This temporary state in which I seem to be looks like real. I often dream dreams but this dream, if it is really a dream, seems so real I don't know whether I can get over it and wake up some day into my good old Andromeda. So I've got to get back to my question: Who am I? Where am I? With this loathsome body, am I still an Andromedan or what? Until yesterday I was always with my fellow Andromedans, flying here and there with my good-looking wings that are sexy enough to attract the attention of lots of female Andromedans. Right now, what do I look like? I look like one of those repulsive, tiny-brained Adromedan cockroaches! How disgusting I look! Until I wake up from this loathsome dream, I have to put up with this almost reptilian body anyway. So what am I? Who am I? Am I really an Andromedan? What if the guy I was yesterday was all a dream? What if the one I am today is the real McCoy? Or rather, what if all of whatever I seem to have seen here and there since my birth is all a dream? I mean, what if not only what I was yesterday and what I am today are nothing but a dream? Or rather, what if this whole dream is unreal? Do I exist at all? Cogito ergo sum (I think, therefore I am), said one of those wise guys back in the Andromeda. But what if this thinking of mine is all a dream? Do I really think or feel anything? Yes, I do seem to be blabbering now. But what if all this monologue is just an illusion? What am I anyway? Who am I? Who put me here on this strange land? Or rather, does this land-like thing really exist? Let me shut my eyes. Let me cover my ears too. And I've got to cover my nose also. I smell nothing, hear nothing, see nothing. I still seem to be blabbering, or rather thinking, but all that may be just a dream. Am I having this dream? Or is it that some butterfly in the Andromeda is dreaming this dream where I with this grotesque body am on this cesspool-like land, being at quite a loss what to do, wondering whether I really do exist? Or does the Andromeda exist? I always thought I was a happy kid in the Andromeda, thinking that the place was really a beautiful astronomical body, with numerous splendid planets and stardust in the violet sky day and night. I never doubted that all those things, the Andromeda and the sky and the stardust and my body and my fellow Andromedans together with those drop-dead gorgeous Andromedan female comrades were real. But I'm not sure any more. I no longer know whether all that really existed. Who am I? What do I live here for? Is there any kind of supernatural existence? Does anybody up there, or down there for that matter, rule the world? Or does this world really exist? I don't know anything any more. I think I'm getting a bit crazy. I almost feel like screaming. I feel alienated. I feel all alone. Totally alone. I wish someone would come to me, convincing me that I do exist, together with the rest of the universe. But I hear nothing, no one approaching. Where is that guy who just came to see me? But I see no one, not a single creature in any direction. I'm turning around my head 360 degrees but I can see nothing, absolutely nothing. Not even a tree or a house or a human or a dog or mountain or anything. Not a single thing! Oh, where is that building I've just got out of? I don't see it any more, not anywhere. Has it vanished into thin air? How strange! Or is my brain turning into some kind of peanut butter? Hey, somebody, talk to me! I don't see anybody! Help! I'm in total darkness. All of a sudden I've become almost blind! I'm in this pitch darkness. What happened to the sun or moon or stars or whatever? I can't see any light anywhere in my eyesight. On top of that, I can't hear anything, not a single sound. I walk and run and jump and I still can't hear my footsteps. I clap my hands but I can't hear the sound of them. I talk loud but I still hear nothing, not even my voice. Help! Do I exist or what? I'm in total darkness! Help! God! Help! I'm a total nothingness!!!!!

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