Unspoken Love
HER PERSPECTIVE
I've never considered myself to not be in control of my feelings but there's one guy that topples it all. He looks so carefree. It's almost as if the wind follows his directions and makes sure his hair is perfect. He's got a sharp jawline that could cut diamonds. He's always with his friends, the center of attention as if he's a supreme god. I don't blame them cause I feel the same too. He seems smart but covers up his intelligence when he's with his so-called friends. They make him hide his soft rose interior with barbed wire of thorns. I've talked to him quite a few times, however, he puts on a mask of insults when others are present but turns into a gentleman when we're alone. I know I shouldn't, but I can't help falling in Love with his being. He's annoying and full of himself but his sweet side keeps pulling me in like a moth drawn to a flame, except I know exactly what trap I'm falling into. Everyone seems to adore him, but no one seems to say so. Who knows? Maybe they're all like me trying to hide their feelings by ignorance. Once, a bunch of idiots were annoying me and calling me names. I ignored them but it got intolerable. Mind you, I'm a strong feminist, But the way he came to my aid and threw a slew of insults at them made me kind of want to be his damsel in distress. The way he messes up my brain with a sly smirk is horrifying. Who knew he could have so much control over me? But, I never and will never tell him that I like him because I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me back and why risk boosting his ego? He's got mountains of that already. You would think he's got a girlfriend but he doesn't. Sure, He's dated two girls in the past, but he was 11 when he did so, quite a long time ago(5 years to be exact), and too young to be called real relationships. He's just single now and flirts with every girl he can see. He loves watching them get all flustered and anxious as he does so. But I refuse to even acknowledge his pitiful attempts because I'm scared I'll fall even deeper into the trench of his grasp(if that's even possible) if I do so. I've never dated anyone, per se, but I've flirted plenty and one time it went so far as to the guy asking me out(I denied by the way) but no one seems to compare to him. He's set my standards to mirror him so no one even comes close. I'd do anything for this crush to go away because I like him but I'm scared of the consequences of loving him.
HIS PERSPECTIVE
She's always busy, and never seems to catch a break. But those rare moments, when she's laughing and spreads the light to everyone are breathtaking. She plans everything meticulously and sending them off her perfectly planned orbit and watching her face recoil in horror is so entertaining and fulfilling. But, she's amazing and makes every room she walks into come to life. I don't think she realizes how much power she holds over people. She just has to say a few words but for all I know, she could be throwing out magic spells because they all do everything to follow her words. She's captivating and I'm jealous of her. She's not afraid to show who she is no matter who she's around. She's smart and kind and always seems to be helping someone or the other every time I turn my head. She's the only one who makes me feel safe being in my own skin. Maybe that's why she has so much power over me- she's seen my raw side, the naked, unforgivably innocent side. Sure, I flirt with girls but that's just my personality. But flirting with her is nerve-wracking because I'm always scared I'd ruin everything and she shows no reaction to any of my attempts. She has everyone wound around her finger, ready to do everything for her. And what scares me the most is that I might be slowly turning into one of them too. I find myself searching for her everywhere I go like something that's missing I can't explain. I keep imagining how she would react to certain things and events. It's like she's embedded into my brain whether I like it or not. She's a drug whose highs I can never come down from. I would never ask her out because there's no chance she'd even consider me before breaking my heart(gently of course, but it would still hurt like a million arrows to my heart. For now, I'll just admire her and her quirks because I like her but I'm scared of the consequences of loving her.
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