Bipolar and Sober
Being bipolar and sober is a feat unto itself in training the mind to be still without the effects of alcohol to obliterate sound and reason from the souls undercurrents running scared because of firings of the mind creating explosive poetic finds that can't be repeated because of the Vraylar in the systems misgivings and lines are skewed and repetitive making it difficult to run two sentences together to make a play for greatness to sink in to the artistic side of life.
So, this is how she felt lately, anyway ..like a work in progress only to remind herself that it's been 3 years and almost 5 months of sobriety under her belt. Now....she's tackling the nicotine withdrawal of things and other misgivings...that will be for another story to tell, she thought to herself as she reached for a pen to write all these thoughts down before they escape out into the universe without results reporting back to her insignificant life in progress of becoming more spiritual in nature.
Sitting and contemplating all the mayhem of progress in motion got her to thinking about wiping the slate clean of any transgressions not even manifested in investing in her future endeavors. Becoming penitent,
was her order of business for the day. Then, thoughts came running across the plains of her imagination of life without end...amen to that concept...especially since she believed in the redemption of mankind because of the sacrifice of one perfect life for all repentant ones.
And this is why she is quitting the ways of wayward mankind that leads to the grave and gravity of the situation.
Puff, puff and no more puffing rotting chemical warfare against the souls redemptive side of my relatable and regrettable habits to break apart the minds eye in seeing reality given freely to be finally free to be a child of God.
Now it was 8 days without a nasty cigarette to stain her teeth but more importantly to unchain her soul by removing any blockages to her spirituality.
It's been a journey to finally break free of two addictions in the way of gaining ...
(Work in progress ..struggling to write lately..please be patient with me)
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